not going mad

stonebeard wrote: First try heroin. Failing that, try more heroin.

And maybe after that try some No-Man's Housewives Hooked On Heroin.

To the drugs/sex/violence crowd: these are all methods of temporary relief. I can generate highs like everyone else, but they're just reprieves from the unbearable. What I'm worried about is the long-term effects of being furious at everything, so just finding ways to ignore how I really feel solves nothing. Perhaps other people are content to seem to function while secretly being berserk but that's certainly not how I want to be.

The idea I like most is going on long walks, but that's something I do anyway. Still it's a start - I think the key is to go on a walk and to not come back, since perhaps it's how I live right now that annoys me; I'm nominally content to sit around not really affecting anything. Throwing everything away would mean I'd be driven by necessity - that'd be a huge change...

(sorry for being emo.) ;P

laplace wrote: To the drugs/sex/violence crowd: these are all methods of temporary relief. I can generate highs like everyone else, but they're just reprieves from the unbearable. What I'm worried about is the long-term effects of being furious at everything, so just finding ways to ignore how I really feel solves nothing. Perhaps other people are content to seem to function while secretly being berserk but that's certainly not how I want to be. The idea I like most is going on long walks, but that's something I do anyway. Still it's a start - I think the key is to go on a walk and to not come back, since perhaps it's how I live right now that annoys me; I'm nominally content to sit around not really affecting anything. Throwing everything away would mean I'd be driven by necessity - that'd be a huge change... (sorry for being emo.) ;P

Chameleon wrote: laplace wrote: To the drugs/sex/violence crowd: these are all methods of temporary relief. I can generate highs like everyone else, but they're just reprieves from the unbearable. What I'm worried about is the long-term effects of being furious at everything, so just finding ways to ignore how I really feel solves nothing. Perhaps other people are content to seem to function while secretly being berserk but that's certainly not how I want to be. The idea I like most is going on long walks, but that's something I do anyway. Still it's a start - I think the key is to go on a walk and to not come back, since perhaps it's how I live right now that annoys me; I'm nominally content to sit around not really affecting anything. Throwing everything away would mean I'd be driven by necessity - that'd be a huge change... (sorry for being emo.) ;P   Walks are a good start. Take some courses, do things outside... the busier you are, the less time you have to think about what's bugging you.