Ozark Soundscape (and my other musical projects)

Keep it up 

You should find  my three tunes here.

http://www.progarchives.com/forum/forum_posts.asp?TID=81652

1) Do you care about what the audience thinks?

2) Do you really like what you make?

BTW, you are young. Keep playing those instruments that you have in your arsenal. You are not 21, like me (lucky b!@#%rd). You'll spend a buttload of time building your playing skills. There is no shame in learning from and practicing other people's stuff, borrowing ideas. Everyone borrows. 

Of course, you also have to deal with the fact that not everything a person makes sounds great. I used to experiments and only a few of those experiment sound worthwhile to me. 

And please, for the love of god, do not promote yourself. It's never in style. People will think you are self-centered beyond measure. 

As you see, I kind of suck at constructive thinking, but I hope you will take my criticism with grace, as Dean once remarked here, i.e. make something out of it. You'll get the hang of it in time.  

Quite a few people started experimenting in their prime: ELO (at least that's what I've read), PF, etc. Some of the stuff worked, some just didn't. Some people, like Faust, TD, and Eno, have it in them - the ability to make interesting experimental music. Some people just don't have it. You wanna be like those guys, stick with it. 

If you lost all hope in the field of experimentation, I would seriously recommend starting writing some songs. If you emphasize melody as the dominant element in music, it will open so many doors for you. It will give you an opportunity to thing about the tackiness of music and/or its emotional depth. Again, there is no shame in sticking with the conventions. Avantgarde, of course, is just a tool for making conventional music somewhat unconventional. Keep in mind: even Brian Eno, a dude who can't play a single darn musical instrument, can/could write some really good songs, too.

If you persist in making music, I know you will succeed. Just figure out what you like and whether you want it in your music. PF experimented, yet not all of their experiments paid off. They also are not very well reputed in the songwriting field (i.e. forging solid melodies). But they freaking made it somehow. They could rock and they could create awesome atmospheres. 

Can I just say it is really inspiring that you start so young on trying new things and making your own music? I wish I'd had the same exposure to more outward reaching music at your age. I was lucky enough to be proficient at musical theory and an instrument, and it's taken me 7 years to become a better classical compsoer. God knows how good you're going to be in that time!

What you said earlier about not having any clear emotions in mind can mean lots of things. It could mean that you don't know what emotions you are putting into the music while there might be a blend of infinite emotions in the actual piece, which you add subcounsciously (spelling?) of course. Anyway, I'm afraid that to me, this song sounds like it's going nowhere. HOWEVER, it is clear that you strive to experiment with music, which I find most promising, especially since I learned that you're 12 years old. Practicing music theory and various (or just one) instrument(s) will allow you to experiment with better precision, which is something your music needs imo. 

Keep on practicing, I remember my "songs" from when I was 12 (7 years ago), I hadn't discovered prog then so it's a bad comparison but still, they weren't better than this. If you actually practice hard (unlike me, I started to practice for real at about 15) you could create some very interesting stuff.