Suicide

Yes, but not for a long time now.

I have had repeated run ins with depression and used to day dream about dying, but never actually planned or seriously considered doing myself in.

I hate it when people claim that suicide is the 'cowards way out' Taking ones own life takes courage and conviction. No matter how bad things may be in your life, actually ending your own life goes against ones basic gut instincts for survival.

Yes, but only for a showrt time... maybe two weeks...

Very recently I've had some bad depression problems... And it did cross my mind more then once... Blaksword is right bout it. Either it takes a lot guts, or the person is insane...

And most of the thought I had where like: If I'd die would they/he/she care? Would they feel the pain I feel right now? etc etc."

When I was very younger I used to think about death and was quite depressed for awhile, then, I let it go. Also, couple of weeks ago, I thought about it in the morning, because life became too much boring to appreciate.. Too much stuyding, too much wasting the time of my life.. The same old boring routine of everyday..

Though, to be honest, I'm really ashamed of myself. I'm a 'kiddie', what troubles could I possibly have to think over it, when there're people whom are facing things in their life I don't even want to think about, but it never went that far to actually willness to commit suicide, only depressions. I'm a person you can bring into depression and sadness in words only..

Lately I've also started to get sadder, more quiet. I'm a pessimistic. Dunno really why I'm saying it, but I guess I have my own dark qualities. They say Polish people are cold, I guess I am a bit cold, god knows why, really annoys the chicks though..

Funny thing, though, I never thought I was going to say this, there're things better be buried..