How are you feeling lately?

I'm sure we have all noticed the changing of the seasons, I look forward to the spring and summer.
However at the moment I am feeling a little isolated and down, so I wanted to reach out.
I just thought I would post here and ask everyone how they're doing/feeling lately?
I'm really grateful we have this platform to connect with awesome music and other people!
Its twilight here in New Orleans, and an oddly quiet night.
I hope everyone is doing well

Much love

Hi Willo!

I'm doing OK. I prefer winter always, but can adapt to hot weather too. The best is actually experiencing weather changes. 

The COVID-19 era has not been very problematic for me. I was already used to living in solitude for months, this only has lasted longer and will last longer. I chose not to socialize, but talk to some people here and there. So, I wouldn't call my situation a maddening isolation.

Take care...

Hey there, yes it's not so much the isolation of covid itself, but the isolation I've experienced by literally losing everything, and having to learn to adapt.

Does that make sense? I'm just now getting back into the groove with trying to sell art and make money. I never feel right trying to socialize out in the real world when I'm too concerned about how im going to pay my phone bill, etc.
It can be really isolating when those things are on your plate and others around you aren't concerned about it as much.

I had a beer again for the first time since November (counter-productive).
Things are smoothing out though. Staying relatively sober, Putting personal stability and self-directed accomplishment first in life can be kinda isolating, ya know?
To have to be serious when others are comfortable and relaxed. One blunder would hurt me a lot more than most people, I feel. So I always have to stay focused on what I am trying to do (which isnt even anything unreasonable I just want more stability)
I'm glad I have you nerds to talk to. Emotional support on the prog rock board, how wonderful!

I hope we can keep this thread going and more people come in to share how things have been in their corner of the world.

I'm feeling exhausted and I'm missing friends. I've been back on happy pills for the last 6 months, but generally I would say I'm doing ok. I am grateful for what I have, which is currently more than so many people.

Very good. Thanks.

WilloStardust wrote: I'm sure we have all noticed the changing of the seasons, I look forward to the spring and summer. However at the moment I am feeling a little isolated and down, so I wanted to reach out. I just thought I would post here and ask everyone how they're doing/feeling lately? I'm really grateful we have this platform to connect with awesome music and other people! Its twilight here in New Orleans, and an oddly quiet night. I hope everyone is doing well Much love

Shadowyzard wrote: Hi Willo! I'm doing OK. I prefer winter always, but can adapt to hot weather too. The best is actually experiencing weather changes.  The COVID-19 era has not been very problematic for me. I was already used to living in solitude for months, this only has lasted longer and will last longer. I chose not to socialize, but talk to some people here and there. So, I wouldn't call my situation a maddening isolation. Take care...

I'm glad you chose to talk to us here! Winter is also enjoyable for me, but I have to say fall is my favorite. I've been feeling a little better lately and more occupied so, less lonely.

MortSahlFan wrote: I've been worse, but in the last few years, I've come to despise anything but freezing winter, since I sleep better when my house is freezing at 50 F (even colder in my room where I block the vents, and use a space heater in the living room to avoid using the furnace). My last summer was the best, but that was only because of my weekend LSD trips. Having a migraine for the second day in a row is awful, but unlike yesterday (when I had been up since 3:30am) I'm not going to use my migraine pills. I've had them for 6 years (last time I saw a doctor) and have no plans to see a doctor or even leave my house (I do love having groceries delivered). I miss the soul nutrition I would occasionally receive from seeing a great movie, but I've seen thousands, and although I still have over a thousand on my watch-list, whatever I try is not good enough, and I turn it off within 5 minutes. I know I lack the energy, but when a movie does grab me, I'm in. I go through this every single day, and I can only remember seeing one good movie this entire year (The Visitors; Kazan). It's also been a while since I've heard a great song for the first time. I love to laugh, but when it comes to stand-up comedy, I'm more pickier, or at least my laughing sensibilities are. Physically, I've never been worse. Every part of my body hurts. The pandemic hasn't change my life much, but I'm still worried about getting it, because if I'm sick, there's no one here to make me chicken noodle soup - I'm on my own. I've come to realize the things I can or cannot control, so sometimes I'm only able to imagine, maybe as some kind of mechanism, or something to kill time. I'm in my 30s, but know people twice my age who are doing fine. I think my kind of lifestyle is only meant for 25-30 years, and so most of my days are spent in agony, and I don't just get used to it after years and years.

Dude,
I would make you soup if I could. I don't think that there's anything wrong with wanting to live a really wild or active lifestyle. But you got to be realistic. I've suffered with this myself for a while. Like for instance, I smoke weed to help me feel normal. Pretty much all the time. But then when I run out, I notice I feel aggravated for a while, then it kinda starts balancing out... basically I smoke to quell the anxiety, but me not having MONEY is really WHY I have anxiety... so how does me spending money on herb help me be less anxious... haha that's kinda my vicious cycle.
LSD has changed me for life for sure, and it's taken me years to really understand all that I learned. I feel like you never stop really fully understanding what youve learned on your trips. Because what you learned isnt always obvious. All the information recieved is so subconscious,
so subliminal. It takes new situations/experiences to actually bring out new parts of yourself that were shaped during those psychedelic trips... there's this really hardcore isolating feeling months even years after my phase over-doing LSD. The isolation and disconnection happens with me personally, (just speaking from my own here), because I've gotten locked into doing pretty much the same activities all the time (literally watching the same movies because I dont like to watch anything new, listening to the same music for years for the same reason, replaying the same video games)... and for myself and a lot of people, that's partially due to my circumstances in life and how much access I have to quality of life.
I also like to sleep in the cold. I'm not sure if you ever considered trying some herb but it might help with the body pains! I'm so sorry you have migraines too. Its important not to eat too much processed sugars. Like a cinnamon roll or a bit of ice cream something like that every couple days is ok but not several times a day. I just got over an ice cream binge that lasted 2 weeks. I have gained like 10 pounds. I have food stamps lol.
I really understand what you mean about "not getting used to it" after so many years. My mental health issues make me think I'm okay for a week or two but I really have no idea what is going on. I'm really grumpy and set in my ways when it comes to humor and movies and things like that too.

lazland wrote: I am both tickety and boo, thank you.

Hugs!!!