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colorofmoney91
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Posted: November 20 2011 at 00:11 |
I hate how anger adds up. I try not to let it add up because I don't know how to release it anyway. My life is basically my rational brain battling the other part of me that wants to scream viciously at everything and then kill myself.
I know I'm not helping at all but it's good to have someone to compare hate and anger with.
Edited by colorofmoney91 - November 20 2011 at 00:14
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darkshade
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Posted: November 20 2011 at 00:13 |
I believe everyone has them every once in a while, but twice this year I actually considered suicide, but I have too many goals I want to achieve, nor do I think I could follow through. Both times were female-related, and one of the times was also related to my life situation.
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darkshade
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Posted: November 20 2011 at 00:15 |
Music is one of the few things that keeps me going. I cannot rely on friends AT ALL, and family only helps so much.
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colorofmoney91
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Posted: November 20 2011 at 00:21 |
I'd probably rely on friends for help but I don't have any lolololl so I listen to weird music instead.
Anyway, if you ever need someone to talk to with varied results, I'll always be available if I'm not out circle jerking with my imaginary pony friends. 
I feel your pains.
Edited by colorofmoney91 - November 20 2011 at 00:30
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darkshade
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Posted: November 20 2011 at 00:21 |
I killed the shred!
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colorofmoney91
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Posted: November 20 2011 at 00:22 |
How fitting!
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darkshade
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Posted: November 20 2011 at 00:23 |
Thanks Alan.
No Ive never made my thoughts known, and they went away after a few minutes; though one time I thought about it for like a half hour. Never had that happen to me before.
I just need a big change in my life.
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darkshade
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Posted: November 20 2011 at 00:28 |
See you guys later
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colorofmoney91
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Posted: November 20 2011 at 00:28 |
Changes happen slowly, but they eventually come I suppose. You should a realistic goal for the next couple of years that you can work on achieving. Working at a single seemingly simple goal over the course of a few years brings along various other changes that are initially unforeseeable.
Mine is to finish college, which seems realistic enough.
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colorofmoney91
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Posted: November 20 2011 at 00:30 |
I'm liking Loveless more than I expected to. This seems like the shoegazing album.
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A Person
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Posted: November 20 2011 at 00:37 |
colorofmoney91 wrote:
I'm liking Loveless more than I expected to. This seems like the shoegazing album. |
It was gud.
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colorofmoney91
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Posted: November 20 2011 at 00:39 |
I just finished listening to three (3) consecutive Porcupine Tree albums.
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A Person
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Posted: November 20 2011 at 00:39 |
That's one (1) more Porcupine Tree album than I've ever listened to.
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colorofmoney91
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Posted: November 20 2011 at 00:41 |
Trains last night got me in the mood to explore their back catalogue and I like the prominent use of acoustic guitar on Stupid Dream and In Absentia and the Recordings compilation.
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A Person
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Posted: November 20 2011 at 00:42 |
I keep wanting to listen to more of them but I never do.
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colorofmoney91
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Posted: November 20 2011 at 00:45 |
A lot of their songs sound the same though.
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A Person
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Posted: November 20 2011 at 00:49 |
I can imagine.
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colorofmoney91
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Posted: November 20 2011 at 00:53 |
I am going to lay down and listen to Univers Zero, goodnight.
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Posted: November 20 2011 at 01:18 |
Such silence in the shred, I guess I'll go to sleep too.
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Posted: November 20 2011 at 04:55 |
my apple taste like garlic
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