SR37: I sorry

Oops.   

Edited by Henry Plainview - June 19 2011 at 23:40

Double oops

Edited by Henry Plainview - June 19 2011 at 23:46

I don't get it.

Harry Plinkett?

wut Henry?

The Truth wrote: JJLehto wrote: Well seems like you don't really want to know Tanner...so now I am filled with melancholy and woe nah I'm bored out of my mind but things are good. New ellen is pretty good.   Good to hear bra.   I wish I could say the same, I'm pretty depressed right now, I think it's the pain meds.   I just wish my kidney stone deal was over with.   And yeah, this Ellen really appealed to me.

f**k sorry to hear man.

Though moving back home has it's negatives, I do really like having a workout room 15 feet away from my room. Great stuff.

Question:  Anyone prefer Asus over Acer or vice versa?  I'm looking into getting a new monitor finally, and I'm looking at one from each of those brands.  Here are the individual monitors:
http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16824236052 - The Asus
http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16824009266 - The Acer

Both have good reviews, both are nicely sized.  The Asus is $30 more and comes with built-in speakers I'll never use, and an inferior contrast ratio.  I'm leaning more towards the Acer at the moment, unless someone has experienced major problems with one.

wut is this

SaltyJon wrote: Question:  Anyone prefer Asus over Acer or vice versa?  I'm looking into getting a new monitor finally, and I'm looking at one from each of those brands.  Here are the individual monitors: http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16824236052 - The Asus http://www.newegg.com/Product/Product.aspx?Item=N82E16824009266 - The Acer Both have good reviews, both are nicely sized.  The Asus is $30 more and comes with built-in speakers I'll never use, and an inferior contrast ratio.  I'm leaning more towards the Acer at the moment, unless someone has experienced major problems with one.

Asus is brilliant. You can almost not go wrong.

This guy has apparently just been discontinued. Can't find it it on Newegg and I just got it not a month ago.

http://www.compusa.com/applications/searchtools/item-details.asp?EdpNo=6798095&csid=ITD&recordsPerPage=10&body=REVIEWS

So worth it.

TheGazzardian wrote: I suddenly remembered that Pinky and the Brain exists, and youtube verified it was as awesome as I remember from my childhood.

Someone on my hall would watch the Pinky and the Brain DVDs in the common room, it was weird.

Part 2(sorry for the delay, my computer is unhappy and I lost my place! You should be glad I couldn't get PA to word wrap it)

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nksdarleneillpayyoubackassoonasicanjacobsaiddontworryaboutitisaidmakingmywaytothelittleatminthecorneritookoutthedarlenedebitcardandputitinedwardhadntmadeitveryhardtofigureoutthecodeitwasmybirthdayipunchedinthefournumbersandwaitedforthewithdrawaltogothroughthenalittlebubblecameupwouldyouliketocheckyourbalancethisquestionsurprisedmeidneverreallythoughtaboutcheckingthebalancebeforemostofthetimeijusthandedthedebitcardtothecashierandhopeditwouldgothroughbuthowmuchmoneyhadedwardputintotheaccountipressedyesholycrowiyelpedassoonasisawsixdigitsnotevenbotheringtolookatthenumbersthatformedthosesixdigitswheniwasfinallycapableofdoingsoicomprehendedthenumber396564dollarsand18centswhichmeantedwardhadoriginallygivenmeabout400000dollarstostartwithistaredatthenumberandshookmyheadwhatwasigoingtodowithfourhundredthousanddollarsthenithitmeedwardhadsaidbellawatchingwasapermanentoccupationthatamountofmoneywasmorethanenoughtoliveonpluswhateverexpensesittooktosuccessfullywatchbellaandhereiwaspretendingtobequilsgirlfriendtoimpressjacobishouldntjustbegoofingofflikethisdidanybodyelseseehowcompletelyridiculousthiswaswerejasperandalicesomewhereinithacatalkingabouthowstrangethisallwasdidedwardexpectmetofollowbellatotheendsoftheearthleavingpaulandthepackbehindsuddenlyiwantednothingmorethantoleavethiswaswrongverywrongactuallyiwantednothingmorethantofindedwardshovethedebitcardathimandtellhimtowatchhisowngirlfriendilearnedforwardrestingmyelbowontheatmmachineandtookadeepbreathasiranmyhandovermyhairiletmyselfbreathewhilekeepingmyeyesontheenormousnumberonthescreenwhentheydidntmagicallyturnintosomemorereasonablenumberiforcedmyselftorecoverigatheredmyselfandstoodupstraightineededtogetseriousichosethewithdrawaloptionandtookoutahundreddollarstheniturnedtofindjacobandquilleaningoversomecarmagazineslaughingaboutsomethingasutterlyridiculousasitwasiguessitwasntfairtoblamethemforbeingimmaturetheywerejustkidsafterallandtheywouldbeforcedtogrowupveryfastverysoonassoonasthatthoughtcrossedmymindtheglassdoorburstopenringingthebellabovetheentranceandslammingintotheoppositewallanotherquileuteboywalkedthroughthedoorandwentstraighttothecounterhewalkedtooquicklyandpurposefullytonotattractattentionquilandjacobontheothersideofthestorenoticedhimimmediatelyembryquilsaidrecognizinghimjacobslookconfirmeditembryifollowedjacobandquilovertothecounterwhereembrystoodwaitingforthecashiertopayattentiontohimjacobandquilstoodathissideembryturnedhisheadtolookinourdirectionandweallweretakenabackembryswasincrediblytalliwasntsureifhewasalwayslikethatbuthewasalsoganglythiswasntwhatmadehimstandoutasbizarrethoughhelookedlikehedjustbeenrunningamarathonsweatplasteredstrandsofhislongblackhairtohisforeheadandhehadwaterfallsofitseepingthroughhisshirtonhischestarmpitsandbackevenfrombehindjacobandquilicouldfeelhiswarmthradiatingfromhiminafamiliarwayhetookonelookatjacobandquilandswallowedhardhisfriendswerestillinshocktheireyesbuggingoutoftheirsocketsembryyoulooklikequilstartedembryrolledhiseyesiknowhegroanednotlettinghimfinishhissentencequilandjacobexchangedworriedglancesasembrylookedawayandgrippedthecounterinanimpossiblyquickmotionhelookedlikehewasgrittinghisteethasheclosedhiseyesjacoblookedatmedarlenedoyouthinkyoucantakeustothehospitaljacobaskedhistonewassoauthoritalandiwassodisturbedbyembrysappearancethatistartedtonodthenembryshookhisheadquicklyidropofsweatsplatteredfromtheendofhishairicringedatthatmymomsaysicantgotothehospitalembrysaidtojacobandquilhestoppedandlookedatmehisfacewasstilltwistedinpainbutheattemptedtosmilethatsdarleneheaskedjacobmotioningweaklytomejacobnoddedwithagrimsmileembrylaughedalittlehmiguessquilwasntmakingherupafterallquilrolledhiseyesandsighedinannoyancenooffensebutyouwerenevergoodatgettingoldergirlsembrysaidapologeticallyittookeverythinginmypowertonotcommentonquilgettingoldergirlsismotheredmyweaksmilebypretendingtohaveanitchundermynosequillookedatmealmostquestioninglyjacobwasabletostayfocusedonthematterathandembrywhywontyourmomletyougotothehospitaljacobaskedconcernedembryshookhisheadannoyedihavenoideaitriedtogototheclinicandwellyoucanguesswhoisawonmywaythereiturnedaroundsoiwouldnthavetodealwiththemembrysaidjacobandquilknewexactlywhohewastalkingtoatonceididntthenthedooropenedagainistraightenedimmediatelyitwasthoughsomesortofelectricchargewasputtingmeonedgeiturnedaroundohnoisaidinunisonwiththeotherthreebecausesamjaredandpaulhadjustwalkedintothestoreilookedatthreeofthemeachofthemimmediatelyseemedtonoticemeifeltoneoftheboysstraightenbesidemeiturnedandsawthatembrylookedalmostscarednohewasscaredterrifiedevenherewegoquilmutteredbadwesternimitationatthestorepart2jacobsmiledgrimlyatthatwhilehishandrestedonembrysshoulderifeltasthoughiweremissingsomeinsidejokeilookedatthemanbehindthecounterwhowastakingtoolongumexcusemeisaidtothepersonattheregisterhefinallylookeduptoseehehascustomersimotionedforembrytogofirsthegavemeanappreciativenodandopenedhishandwherehewasholdingalittlewhitebottleofaspirinasthecashiertookitandrangitupembryleanedonthecounterandputhisswelteringheadinhishandsswe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countsasashiftanywayiaskedsixhoursofrunningtheborderhesaidiraisedmybrowsyouwererunningforeighteenhoursiaskeditwastheonlywayicouldgetthiswholedayoffhesaiddefensiveistaredathimsamwasnothappyaboutthejacobstalkingneitherwasjacobbythewayifeltmybrowstogetherinconfusionihaventevenmetjacobyetwellascammyanywayhowwashealreadymadatmepaulansweredmebeforeicouldaskjakesconvincedthatyourespyingforthecullensifiwereitwouldhavebeenhelpfulforthemtoleaveanumberformetoreachthematirespondedimmediatelyoverdefensivegreatjacobandiwerealreadyofftoabadstartilookedoutthewindshieldthoughtfullyandthenturnedlookedatpaulhewasleaningintotheseatstryingtomakehimselfcomfortableinthechairashelookedsidewaysatmehesighedheavilyhedoesntliketokeepthingsfrombellapaulsaidithoughtaboutthatforamomentthengaspedasisuddenlyrealizedwhatpaulwastryingtosayjacobcantsayanythingaboutmeicriedpaulshookhisheaddontworrysammadeitanordernooneisallowedtomentionyouoryourexistenceifsheevercomesaroundshecantevenknowaboutusbeingwerewolvessamstryingtomakejacobforgetallabouthershesjusttooclosetothecullenspaulsaidisighedwithreliefsavedbysamigaveashortlaughattheironyofitmaybesamhadmorerespectforwhatiwasdoingthanidthoughttellsamisaidthankyouforthatitoldpaulpaulsmiledalittlebeforeleaningintokissmeoncehishandtouchedmyhairandhisfacewastoocloseforanawkwardlylongtimehismovementssluggishwithhisgrogginessyouneedsomesleepiwanttostayherepaulmurmurediwantedthesamethingbutpaulwaspracticallymakingapillowoutofthegloveboxhisdarkeyespiercedthroughmewideandpuppylikeweresobusyidontknowwhenillseeyouagainidontknowwhenillseeyouagainthatstruckhomeistaredathimforalongmomenthesmiledwheniunbuckledmyseatbeltandhewordlesslyunderstoodpullingmeacrosstheemergencybrakeandcompartmentsbetweentheseatshiswaywasmuchmoreefficientthanmeclimbingoverallofittosharehisseathepulledmeintohislapwrappingmewithhisarmsicouldbarelygetmyarmthroughhisholdtoturnofftheheaterinthecarittookonlyminutesforthetwoofustofallasleepthankfullymydreamsstayedatbaythedurationofthevisittimecontinuedtodragandsodidischoolhomeworryphonecallsfrommyfamilyanddonnathatwasmylifenowitfeltlikebutbeforeiknewititwasfridaytheentiredayiwasjitterywithnervousnessmykneebouncinginmyseatirritatingthestudentsaroundmeifeltlikeasoldierwaitingtobesentonasuicidemissionicouldntstopthinkingshouldigotolaurentnowwhatifhewasnttherewhatifherealizedidbeenstallingtomeethimandhedlosthispatiencewithmewhatifididsomethingthatwasaclassiccammymistakethatgotmekilledthatlastpartfrightenedmethemostbecauseiknewjusthowpossiblethatwasbellawasgoingtomeethimtomorrowhowlongcouldiputthisoffihadabsolutelynoideahowimanagedtofallasleepbutimusthavebecausethenextthingiknewiwasstandinginthecullenhousethedropoffpointofmydreamwasinthemiddleofthecullenlivingroomwidelikeanstudiowithnowallsorsupportsiwalkedaroundsearchingforlaurentasthoughhecouldhideinsuchanopenspaceiwasalonehereitseemedeventhoughmyheartwaspoundingexpectingtheusualhorrortohappeniwasmorecomfortableinthisspaceiwonderedbrieflyifmyimaginationwasrightabouttheblueprintsofthehousewheniactuallydidgettherewasitgoingtolooklikethisiwalkedaroundthepianoglidingmyhandsacrosstheglossyblackfinishiwasattemptingtobecasualbutiwasconvincednowthatnomatterhowmanytimesirelivedthisdreamiwasnotgoingtogetanybetteratmeetingavampiretheyweretoostunningtoobreathtakingeverytimeyousawthemtoknowwhattheycoulddotheoverenhancementstheypossessedwastoodistractingtotakeinletalonetheirscentandbeautytheonlywaytomakeitsoiwouldneverhavetodothisagainwastodowhatjasperhadinstructedmesoiapproachedhimhelloicalledoutsuddenlytheceilinglightsturnedonthewhitewallswereblindingandthesquaresofwhitecarpetontopofthewoodenfloorwerelikestarsagainsttheblackskyitwastooorderlyinherenopicturesordecorationsjusttheblankcanvasofahouseplusapianoitwaslikeanemptyartstudiocammysaidavoiceispunaroundtooquicklyandwasnotconfrontedwithlaurentisawthegracefulleanfigureofanothervampiredescendingthestaircaseonestepatatimehispalehandglideddownthebanisterthathunglimplyonitusingitoutofhabitthannecessityifeltawidesmilefallacrossmyfaceasiwasmetwithjaspercullenatthefootofthestairsjasperilaughedrelievednothingbadcouldhappenwithjasperherelaurentcoulddonothingwhenihadmybestfriendmydefenderandthebestvampiretohaveonyoursideinabattleitwaswhenisawhimthatiwaspositivethatlaurentwouldnotbemakinganappearanceinmydreamtonightistartedtowardhimbutinhisusualvampirespeedhewasalreadyacrosstheroomatthepianobenchhispalehandgesturedtothespacebesidehimashesatiwalkedquicklyattemptingtomatchhiseffortlessspeedandsatbesidehimitwasfunnyhowunaffectediwasbyhisappearanceotherthantheinstantaneouscomfortthenostalgiaofseeinganoldfriendevenifhewasavampirelookingathimijustwantedtospillouttheeventsthathadhappenedinhisabsenceiwantedtoapologizeforwhathadhappenedatbellasbirthdayiwantedtotellhimthatthisbookwouldbeoversoonandlethimknowabouteclipseiwantedtotellhimhowmuchimissedhimsneakingintomyroominthemiddleofthenightandthatidlefthiscornerthatalicehadmadehiminperfectorderdespiteedwardsravagingthroughmyhouseinadesperateattempttofindnewmoonbuttheblondebeautifulfaceiwaslookingatwasnotreallymyfriendjustlikeiwasntreallyinthecullenhousethiswasmydreammysubconsciousitwoulddomenogoodtowrapmyarmsaroundhimandtellhimtocomehomeyouknowyoucandothiscammyjaspersaidhisgoldeneyesunintentionallylockingallofmyattentionistaredathimofcourseiknewthatotherwiseiwouldntbedreamingitthedogsarereliablesoarethebookstheoddsareinyourfavorinoddeddumblyjaspersmiledalittlebitismiledbacksomewhereinthehouseaphonerangitwasajoltingsoundthatseemedtoshakethescenerysomethingtoldmetheendofthedreamwascomingwasitmorningwasitsaturdayalreadymyheartstarteditsrhythmicpanicalloverilookedbackatjasperiwantedtograbholdofhimandpullhimintorealitywithmeiwantedhimtobewithmewhenifacedhimimissyouisaidtojasperjasperlookedlikewasgoingtosaysomethingtothatbutinsteadhesaidsomethingelseansweryourphonecammyhesaidmybrowfurrowedifeltthemyconsciousnessslippingbacktorealitywhatmyphonewasringingilookedaroundtheroomseeingfamiliarshadowsdrapedfromthewindowsitwasstillnighttimeinfactitwas212inthemorningaccordingtotheclockonmynightstandwhowascallingthistimeofnightmaybeidaccidentallysetsomealarmonmyphoneiblindlyscroungedaroundtheneighboringnightstanduntilifoundmyphoneiheldituptomyfacesoicouldseethecalleridentificationwhenilookedattheblinkingnumberindicatingitdidnorecognizethecallerthenithitmeallatoncetheweirdphonenumberwiththeforksareacodetheonethatihaddutifullyignoredforthepastfewweeksthenumberthatisomehowhadknownwasntsomeonewhohadthewrongnumberthoughididntrealizeitatthetimetherereallyhadbeenareasoniwasavoidingthatcallhowdidjasperknoworratherhowdidiknowasmythumbhithoveredoverthesendbuttonicouldonlypraythatmyinstinctswerewrongmaybejustmaybethiswouldbeawrongnumberipressedithearthammeringloudlyinmychestagainstmysternumicouldfeelthereverberationsofmyheartbeatthuddingthroughmyentirechesthelloiansweredcamilleitsabouttimeiwasbeginningtothinkyouwereavoidingmesaidanalltoofamiliarredvelvetvoicesorryaboutthecliffhangericouldnthelpmyselfdontattackmeimworkingonthenextchapternowchapter53alibisharelaurentinreallifeandhereiwasjustlyinginbedonlybarelyawakeifiwasntfrozeninsuddenfearthaniwouldhavehurriedtoendthecallcurledintothecornerofmyroombehindjasperschairandcriedbuticouldntmovethenightwassomewhatclearandthemoonlightshownthroughthewindowmakingthedarkroomlooktoomuchliketheonefrommydreamhellolaurentquestionediwasbreakingthebiggestrulehesitatingandwhatcouldisaywherewasjaspersvoicetohelpmerememberwhatiwasdoingthisjustremindedmethatthiswasrealjaspercouldntbeheretohelpmewhenhewasnteveninthesamestateiwasntimaginingmyworstnightmareiwaslivingitthenallofthesuddenmystomachlurchedididntfeelsicklikeihadthestomachfluitwasaninstinctthatwaslikeapunchinthefaceremindingmewhatiwasdoinghellolaurentiforcedmyselftoanswerididntfeelanybetteronceirespondedwherehaveyoubeendidntyouknowiwashereheaskedthiswaswheremyhesitatingactuallyhelpedmebecauseirealizedthatthiswastheperfecttimetoshowmyforetellingabilitiesiswallowedhardandusedthatquietmomenttothinkofaproperresponseididisaidiwaswaitingfortherightmomenttocomemeetyouwiththewolvesaroundweneedtotimeourmeetingperfectlyiveregainedthewolvestrustiwasntsureexactlywhatiwastalkingaboutbutitsoundedvillainousandcrypticatthesametimejustwhatlaurentneededhopefullyhecouldnthearmyvoiceshakingmyhandswenttomypursetearingopenthecom partmentthatheldthebooksmyhandswereslipperytryingtoundothezipperitookoutnewmoontothepartihadmarkedwithfoldedpageshowonearthdidyoumanagethatiheardlaurentpurrwellitwouldntbeashardasitcouldhavebeenbeinganimprinthowelsedidsomeoneregaintheirloverstrustyoudbeamazedathoweasilypeoplecanfoolthemselveswhenyoutellthemwhattheywanttohearisaidihadlearnedthatlessonthehardwaylaurentletoutachucklethatrangthroughthephonelikeaperfectlytonedbellgiftedandcleveritoldherthiswouldworklaurentsaidthatreallythrewmyoffmymindwasblankforaninstantthenallofthesuddenitclickedmyeyeswentwideandiwasstunnedimmobileinmyfranticpageturningagainhernonoihadntpreparedforthislaurentwasbadenoughvictoriaibreathedthequestionyessheisheretheboywellyouknowofedwardheisnotverygoodattrackingitwilltakehimawhiletonoticethatsheisinthelastplacehewouldeverlooklaurentsaidhesoundedamusedbytheverythoughtofitsheisouthuntingrightnowbutshewaslookingforwardtomeetingyoushewouldliketodiscusssomethingwillyoubejoiningussooniwasatamomentarylossforwordswouldiwaitwhatwasvictoriadoinghereshewassupposedtobeinthesouthgettingtheideatostartthenewbornwarshewassupposedtobeontherunfromedwardshecouldntbeherewasthispartofthestorysomethingbelladidntseeormaybethestorywasofftrackishudderedatthatthoughtshecouldntbehereiflippedbackafewpageswhenlaurentwastalkingtobellavictoriashewantstotalktomeisaidslowlytofillthesilenceasireadonicouldseenothingaboutvictorianothingthathintedathercurrentpresenceyessheaskedmetomapouttheareaforheritriedtofindawayintownbutthosebeastshavebeenanuisanceeventryingtoturnthehumansagainstthemdoesntseemtobeworkinglaurentsaidcasuallyiheldmybreaththepeopleinthewoodsthatwerebeingkilledlaurenthadbeensettingthemupforthewolvestotaketheblameitevenbackfiredthehikersarebecomingmorescarcefromthewarningsthatswhyhewasnthuntinginthecitythewolvescouldnotbemorecarefulthanlaurentthehumansthathadspottedthewolveswouldimmediatelysuspectthemavampirewouldnotbeseenifhedidntwanttobebutawerewolfwashardtohidefinallyiexhaledwhencanweexpectyoulaurentaskedihesitatedthiswasiticouldchickenouttelllaurenttomeetmeinthemeadowtomorrowsothathewouldfindbellaandthewolvesthetradeoffwasthatiwouldbeleftdefenselesswithvictoriarunningaroundoricouldgointothelionsdenmyselfandliemywaythroughthemandgetvictoriatoleavesomehowihadtobesureireadoneofthelinesagainbellaididntcometothisplaceonvictoriasmissioniwashuntingvictoriacouldntbeherenotwithbellaoutsideofforksitwouldbetooeasyforlaurenttoturnaroundandgetherwhenhewasalreadysomewhatnearthecullenshousebutifshewasawayifshewasdistractedsuddenlyiknewjustthedistractionineededdamnitiguessimonmywayisaidquietlythesentencehadbeenhalfforcedoutafterallidknownicouldntjustusethemeetmethereexcuseandnotshowupthiswasntaschoolpranklaurenthungupwithoutsayinganythingthisworriedmehadisaidsomethingwrongihesitatedpullingthephoneawayfrommyearthecallendedthescreenreturnthemainmenuiturnedthevolumedownonmyphoneuntilitwascompletelysilentididntevenleaveitonvibrateithoughtabouttextingsamnowbutwhatifhetriedtostopmeisuckedinabreathandexhaledokayokayiwoulddothisfirstthingwasfirstisentatexttosamvampirewillbeinthemeadowwithbellatomorrowafternoonjacobknowswheretofindheritstheplacetheyhavebeenlookingforonthemapfromthereiwenttotheclosetandstartedtogetdressedintoafreshpairofclothesnowijusthadtomakesurethatlaurentwouldbetherewithoutvictoriawiththeadrenalinerunningthroughmyveinseverysensefeltsharpenedicouldhearmytooloudfootstepsonthefloorsmellthecrispscentofthedampnightaftertherainpanicwasmakingmyheartbeatwildlyilookedtomypursedebatingontakingitwithmenewmoonwassafelylyingbesideitopenonmyunmadebedthenirealizedthatthiswasonejourneythaticouldnotbringthebiguglypursewithmeicouldnotbringthebookswithmewhenmeetingthevillainsofthisseriesiwouldnothanddelivertheminformationaboutthecullensandthewolvesiputnewmoonbackwhereitbelongedandthenstuffedthepurseunderneathmybedalliwasbringingwasmycellphoneistartedtoheadbacktowardmycarwhenirememberedimightalsoneedmykeysandlicensetooirolledmyeyesatmyselfandwentbacktomyroomtogetthemokaynowiwasreadyitwasdarkerintherestofthehousethanitwasinmyroomiwenttothebathroomfirsttobrushmyteethandlookedatmyselfinthemirrorbeforeputtingmyhairdownandbrushingitoutlikeihadalllastyearwhenihadtheenglishclasswithjaspertolessentheintensityofmyscentasmuchasiwantedtoicouldnotstallanymorelaurentwasmeetingbellatodayandihadalotofworkaheadofmeifiwasgoingtogetridofvictoriaijoggedlightlyoutthedooranddownthestepstowardtheaudiisighedtonooneassoonasiwasinsideiturnedoffthemusicassoonasiturnedthekeyididntneedanymoredistractionsthenistarteddowntheroadpurposefullytowardthecullenhousetheenginewasquieticouldhearnothingbutthewindwhippingasisawthesceneryflashbyidontknowwhyiwasdrivingsofastmaybeitwasmyjitterynervesasiwentdownthecurvyroaditurnedmyheadlightsonitshighestsettingwhenifoundmyselfgoingdownthelongroadthatwasslippingintothefoilageialmostmissedtheturnigaspedaudiblywhenisawthestrangeclumpofbrushgrowingfromthesideoftheroaditwasingrownandunkemptobviouslyaplacewheretherewaslackofmaintenanceislowedandturnedintothepatchofbrushbushesandtreesbrushingagainsttheoutsideofthecarihadtoslowdownfromtherethepathwasdifficulttofollowinthedarknessasifollowediwassuddenlystruckwithmemoriesofthecullensthelasttimeidseenaliceweweregoingdownthisroadtobellasbirthdaypartyirememberedsittinginthevolvobesideheralicewassogiddyforabirthdaytocelebrateirememberedheraskingifshecouldalsodomybirthdaywhichhadlongsincepastthenirememberedjasperandinstantlyfeltbetterevenifihadntspokentotherealjasperforawhileiknewhewouldbeproudofmefordoingthisdespitemedeliberatelyputtingbellaindangeragainifonlytemporarilymaybeevenedwardwouldbeproudofmeandnaturallyifthewolvescaughtwindofthisiwouldbesuretogetasternlectureialmostsmiledatthatthoughtthenbrushsuddenlyunexpectedlyopeneduprevealingahugefieldandbeyonditarectangleofhomeitlookedmuchdifferentthanithadsixmonthsagotheyardwasovergrownandweedstackledthesideofthehomethegrasswaslongenoughtobillowinthewindandthefreshwhitehousewasadullercolorbellawasrightithadturnedintoavampireslairnolongerbeingthecullenshomenowitwasahideoutformaneatingmonstersifollowedtheunpavedroadhypersensitivetothesoundofrockscrunchingunderneaththetiresibrakedmyhandsshakingtoputthecarinparkthecarhadstoppedrightinfrontoftheporchlookingforanythingoutofplaceicouldntstopstaringatthehouseatthefrontdoorwhereheawaitedbeyondasrealizationresurfacedremindingexactlyhowstupidiwasforallowingmyselftodothisifoundasuddenurgetopanichowfastwouldibeificouldjustreleasetheemergencybrakeandthrowthecarbackintodrivesoicouldmakeabreakfortheborderagainthistimeiwouldntstoprunninguntiliwasbackinlapushsafeinsidesamandemilyshouseoriguessitwasjustemilyshousenowandcollapseintotearsthatwasntanoptionbeingthiscloseihadpastthepointofnoreturnalongtimeagotheyhadheardmebynowiforcedmyselftolookawayfromthefrontdoorihadtodothistheniheardasoundandfeltacoolrushofairiwhippedmyheadaroundtofacemycardoorthathadbeencourteouslyopenedformebylaurenthimselfthefreshairspilledintothecarfromtheopeningandahandsomepalefacewaslookingdownatmehissilhouetteoutlinedbytheglowofthemoonigaspedasilookedathimcursingmyselfasididluckilymyfirstinstinctwastostopandstareathimbecausemynextinstinctwastostartscreaminghesmiledatmeasiwaslockedfrozeninplaceiwashesitatingicouldntmoveicouldntspeakicouldonlystarehesitatingicouldnthesitatethemomentwasquicklybecomingawkwardaslaurentandijuststaredatoneanotherisuddenlyfelttheurgetospeakhellolaurentisaidtheeasinessthatthewordshadcomefrommesurprisedmemorethananythinghadeversurprisedmeinmylifelaurentinstantlylookedwelcomingfinallyiexhalediwasstunnedtonotfindmyselfsobbingasididhellocamillehesaidalmostchucklingashedidhistonewasbemuseditsapleasuretoseeyouagainimademyselfsmilelikewiseisaiduneasilymyvoicetoolowtobeatallconceivedasconfidenticouldbarelyevenhearmyselfluckilylaurenthadexcellenthearingwewereawkwardagainstillstaringatanotherwhatdidsomeonesayinasituationlikethishisgazeseemedtoflickerinthedirectionofmyhandsifollowedhisgazeandrealizedthatmyhandswereclenchedonthesteeringwheelfootnaturallyhoveringofthegaspedalasifmybodywastryingrunawaywithoutanyinstructionfrommymindtodosoiunclenchedmyholdandquicklystartedtoundomyseatbeltasiswungmylegstomoveoutofthecarlaurentextendedhisarmtoofasttobehumantooffermeahanditentativelyheldoutmyhandsothathecouldpullmetomyfeetlikeanyothergentlemanhishandwashardlikearockitwascolderthanthenightairaroundusliketouchingametalpolethathadbeenoutallnightheletgojustasquicklytomyreliefandhestartedupthestepsexpectingmetofollowistaredathisbackhisregularshirtthatwasntatallancientordatedalittlewornmaybeidontknowwhywheneverithoughtofhimidpicturedolderclothesthatwererepresentativeofanothertimeheworeashirtandjeansjustlikeididtonighthoweverhewasbarefootthatwasoddevenmoreoffwasthewayhisfeetmadeaclunksoundontheporchfloorlikesteeltoedbootsaresultoftheirstonehardtextureifollowedbehindhimasheheldthedooropenformethelightswereoninsidethoughihadnoideahowtheyhadgottenthepowertoanabandonedhouseaswewalkedinsideirealizedthatmydreamhadexaggeratedthesceneverymuchtheroomwaswideandopenbutnotendlesslywidelikemydreamshadportrayedittobethecarpetsweretakingoutleavingbehindonlyawoodenfloortherewasnopianojustwhitewashedwallsslightlycoloredwiththelackofcaretakingesmewouldtakecareofthatmomentshegothomeisuspecteditwaskindofsadthoughthationlygottoseethecullenhouseunderthesecircumstancestherewerentevenanycullensherejustlaurentiwatchedhimashemeanderedthroughtheopenspaceitsstrangeisntithesaidcasuallyinoddedatthespaceandthensurprisedmyselfwhenheturnedaroundinthelighthetookonawholenewappearancehiseyesweredarkverydarkajoltofpanicsweptthroughmeihadtobanish*tquicklyheprobablynoticeditbutwastoopolitetosayanythingwereyousurprisedtofindthatvictoriawashereyesveryipausedonlyasecondbeforeiletmybabblinginstinctstakeoverwelllastiheardofhershewassupposedtobeheadingdownsouthimentionedattemptingtosoundcasualshewaslaurentsaidlookingimpressedasiprovedmyforeseeingpowersagainhowevershereturnstocheckonmyprogressonceinagreatwhileihavelittletoshowforthetimeivebeenherehegrinnedsheepishlythosemonstersaretalentedcreaturesforbeingsoyoungbehindthescreamingadrenalineifeltalittleswellofprideformypackiwasgladtheywerenotmakingthiseasyforhimiwasalsosurprisedattheefficiencyofthosepeststheyaremuchmoreorganizedthantheoneinsiberiasaidashrillhighpitchedvoicefrombehindmeicouldnthelpitiyelpedoutahighpitchedscreamandjumpedspinningaroundmyoutburstsechoedintheemptinesslaurentchuckledlightlyinamusementasiturnedisawanotherpalefigureshewastallerthanmehereyeswereabrightrubyredandherorangehairtiedbackinalooseponytailwithshortwhispsofcurlsframingherfaceshewasdistractinglybeautifulnotlikerosaliebutshewasdefinitelyremarkableamonghumansthiswasvictoriaandshewasnotlikeipicturedhershewasntsmilingvillainouslyormenacingatallherperfectfacehadnotraceofamusementorpolitenesswhatsoeverhermouthwasvoidofanyemotionandherfacewasplacidassheobservedmehereyestracedmeasistumbledbackwarduntiliwasstandingbesidelaurentyouknowforapsychicyoureveryeasytosurpriseshesangattemptingtomakehervoicelowwithdangerbutinsteaditjustputanedgetoherdolllikevoiceitsoundedmaniacalsomethingstraightoutofahorrorfilmlikechuckieornightofthelivingdummyitwasstrangebecauseinthebooksidalwaysimaginedhervoicetobelowandsultryinrealityshedidntsoundadultatallshethrewaquickglancealaurentiwasstammeringforwordssuddenlyifoundmyselflookingtolaurenttoohestilllookedbemusedatmyembarrassingfumbleiwaswideeyedstaringathimdidheknowiwaslyingwasthissomesortoftrapvictoriathisiscamillecamillevictorialaurentsaidwavinghishandtoandfrobetweenusinintroductionistaredathershehadherredeyesfixedonmebeforeiknewitiwassuddenlyveryawareofwhatexpressionshehelditwassuspicionhowdoyoudovictoriasaidnarrowingherglarethetonegreetinglackedanywelcomingatallonelookseemedtosolidifyhersuspicionsifeltrightlyaccusedandtransparentifeltcaughtcrapiwasgoingtodiechapter54trustsharewhatdoyouthinklaurentaskedvictoriaashegesturedtomeithinkyoureanidiotvictoriasaidtohimmyheartstoppedasilookedbetweenthetwoofthemtheywereexchangingharshlooksatoneanotherlaurentfoldedhisarmsacrosshischeststubbornlyheflickedhisheadtowardmegoaheadaskheraquestionlaurentsaidilookedhesitantlyfromonetotheotheritseemedtheywerearguingaboutwhetheriwastellingthetruthornotvictorialookedatmeonceandthenbackathimhumanswithspecialtiesareextremelyrarevictoriaarguedthenyoudoubtwhatjameshadsaidaboutthatonehehadtrackedlaurentaskedvictoriabaredherteethanimalisticandletoutalowhissthatsentashiveracrossmyskinipressedmylipstighttokeepfrommakinganaudiblesoundbutlaurenthadgottenthroughherarmorvictoriatookinabreathandturnedtomewhenwillthecovenreturnsheaskedmeihaddonemyresearchbutiwasntpositiveaboutadatealicewouldcomebackthedaybellajumpedoffthecliffthecullenswouldbeallmovedinbythetimeedwardbellaandalicereturnedsometimenextmonthisaidvictoriasighedheavilywithimpatienceherinnocentfacehadanindecipherableexpressiontoitthensheturnedtolaurentthatprovesnothingshesnappedshepredictedjamesdeathandknewyouhadleftedwardinthesouthlaurentsaidvictoriacringedslightlybutquicklyrecoveredihadcaughttheunexpectedflickerofpainthestabofsuddenemotionthatshowedonherforaverybriefsecondfromtheverymentionofhisnameifeltapityforheralbeitaverysmallpitywasthisstandardvampirebehaviorwhentheylosttheirmatewouldsomeonelikecarlislebesopainedthathewouldbebitterwithvengeanceifsomeoneeverkilledesmewouldheturnintoanunstoppablemonsterlikevictoriayouknowaswellasidothatnoonecouldhavepredictedwhathappenedtohimjameswasremarkablelaurentsaidvictorialookeddownatthegroundherbrowfurrowedwithsomethoughtsheclenchedherjawgrindingherteethhewasshemurmuredhereyesstaredatsomethingfarawayconcentratingaboutsomethingthenvictorialookedupbutshesnottrustworthykillheryouwontkillmemymouthsaidautomaticallymyeyeswidenedagainitseemedsomethingwasactingthroughmeididnthavethecouragetospeaklikethisinfrontofthemlaurentandvictorialookedatmeagainbothofthemequallyintrigueddespitevictoriasdisbeliefyesiwasthepsychiciwouldknowihavetoshowyoutheborderisaidalmostbreathlessihadnoideahowiwascomingupwiththisonthespotiletgooftherestraintihadonmymouthitseemedtoknowwhatitwasdoingitwasalmostasthoughmythoughtlessblurtingwastakingcareofmyselfsincemymindcouldntgetpastthefearbordervictoriasanghervoicefindinganewpitchinherinterestkeeptalkingitoldmyselftheoneithoughtquicklythatmarksthewolvesterritoryandthecullensterritorytheysignedatreatyalongtimeagosothatneitherwouldinterferewiththeotherthewolvesshowedmewhereitwastheydidwelltechnicallyjasperandalicehadshowedmewhereitwasafteriwasbanishedfromlapushbutididknowwheretheborderwasyesthismightworktheredoesseemtobeapointthattheywontfollowanymorelaurentpointedoutvictoriaseemedtonarrowhereyesevenmoresquintinginthoughtlaurenthadaverypleasedsmilehecockedhisheadatvictoriaandgaveheraconfidentlookshehuffedindisappointmentthengavelaurentalookthatwipedthesmileoffhisfaceiwaswaryofherasshesteppedtowardmeandwhatifthewolvesseeussheaskedmeagainshelookatmecarefulhereyessearchingmineformyliesoratleastthatswhatitfeltlikeitwouldbetragictohappentorunintothemwhileweweresoclosetotheirterritoryshedidntbothertohidehersarcasmshewasmakingnosecretthatsheontomebutsomehowifoundmyselfshruggingeveniftheactionwasalittleawkwardandoveractediwasstillpleasedwithmyselftheniguessiwouldmakeaveryconvenienthostageipointedoutlaurentraisedhisbrowsinsurpriseshesrightlaurentsaidvictoriaandistaredatoneanothereventhoughiwasveryclearlytheonewhowasntinchargeherethisseemedtohavestrucksomethingwithherihadfoundherweaknessherbloodlustforbellaandrevengeforedwardsomehowbysomemiracleiwasgettingthroughtoherjasperhadbeenrighticoulddothisshelookedatlaurenthewavedhishandtowardmeinasilentgestureasthoughtoprovemysomepointvictorialookedatmeandagainsigheddramaticallyverywellshegroanedinherchildishvoicesoundingverymuchlikethemonstershewasvictoriaflashedlaurentalookdonotbesurprisedifidontbringherbacklaurentlookedconcernedforamomentlookingbacktomedistractthewolvesinthenorthwewillstartinthemiddleandmovesouthdontkillmyprizeshesusefullaurentwarnedpointingathervictoriawasbymysideinstantaneouslyemanatingacoldchillthatdrewmyownbodyheatevenfromherdistanceshedidntlooktheslightestbitthreatenedshelookedawayfromhimalmostrollinghereyesasshedidwellseejusthowusefulshemurmuredherredglarefixedmygazeunexpectedlystartlingmetoshiftmyweightbackwardslightlyherfacewassternwhensheorderedyoucomewithmeshespunonherheelfluidlyandinaninstantofmovementshewasgoneleavingnothingbutatrailofwindpushingmyhairaroundmyfacethedoorwasopenwhereshedleftiturnedtofacelaurenthewaslookingatmeoddlyasthoughinatrancehesuddenlyshookhisheadandgrinnedsheepishlyimsorryforstaringishouldhuntsoonhesaidittookmeamomenttounderstandwhathemeantbythatthenhenoddedtowardthedooricouldfeelthebloodslowinmyveinsgoonsheswaitingoutsideitdbeenawhilesinceidactuallyhadtheabilitytomovefromthespotonthefloorwheremyfeetwereplantedwheniurgedmyselftomoveifoundaweaknessinmylegsinamomentofpaniciwasstruckwiththerealizationthatififelloverandscrapedmykneelaurentwouldbeoutofcontrolfasterthanicouldchokeoutascreamidoubtedvictoriawouldbeveryfarbehindhimthisurgedmetoconcentrateonwalkingandregulatingthebloodflowthatwasrushingbacktomystifflegsvictoriawaswaitingimpatientlyoutinthemoonlightherwildhairmomentarilyheldbackintheponytailasshegazedattheskyshekepthereyesonmeasiapproachedheriwasmovingslowerthanusualasiwasbeingmorecarefulthisseemedtoirritateherasshewatchedmegodownthelastcouplestepsyourspeedisaproblemshemurmuredtherewasnothingtosaytothatsheblinkedonceandthenturnedherbacktomegetonthatonethrewmeshelookedoverhershoulderatmeiwashesitantthesideofherfacegleamedinthelightivehuntedrecentlyifthatiswhatyoureworriedaboutthatwasnttheonlythingshehadwantedtokillmenomorethantwominutesagoandshewasnteventhirstyvictoriacrouchedgracefullysothaticouldclimbonherbackmoreeasilyifshewerefacingmeiwouldhavethoughtthatshewerecoilingforapounceitookadeepbreathandapproachedherwheniwascloseenoughshetookthelibertyoftakingmyhandsformeinherstonygraspandhaulingmeeffortlesslyonherbackitwasuncomfortabletobesoclosetohermyhandsaroundherneckjustbelowherfaceandhermouthsheinhaledhmmthenagainthismightbedifficultshesaidshakingherheadquicklyandexhalingmyscentoutofhernoseifeltmybrowscometogetherinconcernandresistedtheurgetowhimperfearwasrisingupinmychestagainmyheartbegantobeatheavilythiswasabadideathiswasveryveryverystupidideawheretosheaskedinavoicethatwassoharshthatitstifledthefeartoobligeheripointedtheretowardtheforestfollowthetreelineandstayonthesidewiththegrassuntilyoucomeuptothemountainsisaidthemomentshetookastepforwardiclosedmyeyesihadtoclingtoherbackalittlebittightershecouldkillmesoeasilybyjustlettinggowhileshewasrunningwebegantomovethegroundwasglidinglikeatreadmillbeneathusherwalkquicklyascendedtoajogthenalightrunsuddenlyahorriblethoughtstruckmeafterishowedhertheborderwhatusewasitoheranymoremyeyeinstinctuallyclosedtighterasithoughtofsomethingbetterithoughtofthecullensnowiwishedthatihadbeenabletomeetemmettandevenrosalieihadntevenseenesmeiwonderedwhatedwardwasdoingnowexactlyhowmuchwashehurtingoverbellaiwishedalicewereheretolightenthemoodandjasperjasperwastamecomparedtothesetwonotnearlyasunpredictableeventhoughthatwaswhathewasportrayedasbesidetheothercullensnomatterhowmuchicaredabouthimiwouldneverwillinglyrunwithhimthenagainiwouldneverwillinglyrunwithvictoriaeitherandhereiwasthereminderofwhatiwasdoingjoltedmeoutofmytemporarycomfortnonodontthinkaboutrunningthewindwaswhippingatmethoughremindingmethatnohumanshouldeverbemovingthisfastiwasglidingthroughtheairfasterthananyoneshouldclingingtosomethingthatdidntfeelrealifeltlikeiwasstrappedtotheendofacarwhichwouldhavefeltmuchmoresafethanholdingontovictoriawhileshecontemplatedifiwasworthlivingornotthinkaboutsomethingelseiurgedmyselfagainasthefearwasrisingtotakeoversoiclosedmyeyesandthoughtofthewolvesithoughtoftheirendlessconfidenceineclipsethewaysethsnickeredashetorethevampireapartithoughtofjacobwithquilandembrybyhissideeagertotearthroughthenewbornsthenithoughtofpaulpauldidnthavemuchrepresentationinthebooksibetthathewouldbejustaseagerashisbrothersthoughhewouldprotectmebetterthananyonetheywouldendlaurentsoonenoughstrangehowthinkingaboutsomeonesdeathwascomfortingmeineverthoughtmyselfasthehatingtypebutatthismomentitrulywantednothingmore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rlyinthemorningilookedattheclock348isawawerewolfleaninginthroughmywindowismiledatthesightofhimdespitethegrogginessandmyannoyanceofbeingwokenupsoearlyhewasntsmilingthoughhelookedworriedipickedmyheadupoffthepillowimmediatelyreadyingmyselffortheworstwhateveritwasitcouldntbeasbadaslaurentorvictoriaiknewthatmuchsoiwouldfaceitwithoutcomplaintiwouldbejustfineespeciallywithpaulbymysidewhatswrongnothingpaulsaidnothingpaulpulledhimselfthroughthesmallwindowandsomehowslippedingracefullywithoutfallingonthefloororstumblingatallheduckedintomyroomfeetsoundlesslyhittingthewoodenfloorsiwasthinkingabouthowyouwereknockedunconsciouswenevertolddrsnowthatyouhityourheadwhatifyouhaveaconcussionheaskediblinkedathiminconfusionthiswaswhathewokemeupforyoushouldntsleepifyouhaveaconcussionyoumightslipintoacomaorsomethingimtiredpaulicouldprobablyuseacomarightnowicomplainedwithouthesitatingheslidontothetopofmybednexttomehewordlesslysnakedhisarmovermywaistontopofthecovershisbreathingwasslowandevenhiseyesstillworrieditouchedhisfacesoftlydontworryjuststayhereisuggestedhefrownedimightfallasleephesaidsountilyoureinlapushiwontsleepyoullrunofftodosomethingdeathdefyingagainhesaidincreasingthefrownhisarmsholdtightenedpullingmecloserevenifyouwereasleepidontthinkicouldescapetodosomethinglikethatisaiditwastruehisarmswereanunbreakablehardalmostuncomfortablytightifiwantedtomoveiwouldntbeabletopaulsnickeredpullingmeupagainsthimsomyheadwasunderhischinicouldfeelhishotbreathonmyhairashelaughedwhatevermacgyveridonttrustyoutolookafteryourownlifeyoullfindawayhesaidigiggledatthatandsnuggledclosetohimhewasrightnottotrustmeiwastoopreoccupiedtolookaftermyselfineverrealizedthedangeruntiliwasuptomyneckinitwewerequietforamomentilistenedtohisbreathingwithmyearpresseduptohischestiheardthefaintthudsofhisheartbeatandtheexaggeratedwarmthfromhimthesoftnessofhisskinhewassodifferentfromavampiresodifferentfromwhatihadoncewantedasafanoftwilighticouldntimaginedoingthiswithavampireinearlyshiveredtheclosestidbeentheavampirephysicallyhadbeenearlyyesterdaywithlaurentasheheldmeagainsthimmybodycringedinstinctivelyatthememoryhesdeadiremindedmyselfneitherofuswereverytiredanymoreicouldfeelitinthetensewaythatpaulwasholdingmethewaymynoweagerfingersrandownhisfacetohisarmsiwasthinkingandsowashepauliaskedyeahwhathaveyoubeendoingthiswholetimeimeanwhileicouldntcomeseeyouiknowiwassortofbusybutyoumentionedyouwerebusytooisaidifelthisbodytenseandcontouralittlemoretomyshapesotherewerenomoregapsofspacebetweenusmyheadunderhisandhisintensebodyheatwasmakingmealittleuncomfortableunderneaththecomforterhewasstillontopofthecomforterandididntwanttomakethesituationuncomfortablebypullingthethinlayerthatwasseparatingusapartwhatwasidoingpaulrepeatedthoughtfullyhmmstartingfromwherethebeginningofthebookimeanumafteryouguysfoundbellainthewoodsisaidwellhesaidhishanddowntotheedgeofmyhipwellwehadabonfirethatnightwehadtodosomethingtocelebratebutthecelebrationitjustdidntfeelrightnotafterjareddecidedthatthecullenswereprobablygoingtocomebackitfeltemptyithoughtitwasjustmeiknewthatyouwereupsetthatnightandiwishedyoucouldbehappywithmebutsamandjaredcouldntseeitasavictoryeithernotthewayitleftyouandbellaifeltastabofpainasirememberedthatnightbeinglockedawayinthecupboardedwardsangeranddespairimissedhimimissedallofthemseeyouresadpaulsaidilookedupathimandthenbackathischestagainihadntrealizedthathecouldseethelookonmyfacetheyweremyfriendsiwhisperediknowhesaidheraisedhishandoffmywaisttopetmyhairwhattheniaskedeagerlythenthetorturebeganpaulsaidifelttheconfusiononmyfacehesmiledwhathappenedthenhisvoicegavewayasheseemedtocontemplateonwhathewasgoingtosaynextiwastooeagerididntwanthimtostopbeingopenwithmetheniaskedhedeliberatedanothermomentiknowabouttheunimprintthingifthathelpsanythingisaidhiseyeswentwideandhestoppedbreathinghowheaskediprobablyshouldnthadsaidthatimightnotmindifheknewiknewallalongbutididntwanttotattleonemilysoifakedmockeryitsabouttimeyoustoppedbeingsurprisedathowmuchiknowisaidfigureshemutterednarrowinghiseyesinaparticulardirectionasthoughthebookswerethereforhimtoscowlathesighedwellafteryouknowjaredcameupwiththeunimprintingtheoryhethoughtthatlackofexposurewouldhelpgraduallyeasesomeoneofftheobsessionpaullookedthoughtfulthoughstillimthelastpersonwhoshouldbegoingthroughwithdrawalsbutiwastheonlyonewhocouldtryitweneededsamtobeinthebestconditionastheleaderwecouldnthavehimmakingbadcallsoranythingpaulsaidhelookedatmehemovedoutthinkingthatifhediditmightmakeitalittlebiteasierwhenhehadtodoithebrushedmyhairbehindmyearexposingmoreofmyfaceitsreallyselfishofmetohavewellifeellikemyownobsessionkindofsabotageditisaidmywordswerealoneinthedarknessmaybeyouknowithoughttherewasnothingstrongerthanimprintingistilldobutthenyoustartedactingfunnylikeihadabandonedyouandyouwerentsurewhattodoandthenatnightwhenyouscreamedhesaidthissoundingverypainedlikebellatheendlessnightmaresandcountlesssleeplessmomentsbroughtbackthebadtimesformeifeltmyselfswallowharditwasalloverihadnoreasonforbaddreamsanymoresoonitwouldbealloverihadaweektobewithpaulbeforeanythingelsehappene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tsfaultiscreamedbeforeicouldcensormyselfquilstaredatmeicursedmyselfandtriedtolookatanythingelsearoundusquilspresencedominatedtheareaimethisgazesuddenlyrealizingthatihadtocranemynecktolookathimwasitjustmeorhadhegrownstupidquestionwhoslaurentandwhatdidhedotoyourcarquilpressuredishifteduncomfortablywhereistooditriedtopushmymindtothinkofawaytogetquilawayfrommesoicouldgohomegohomequilisaidfirmlyiwasnothreattoquilandquillookedlikehedhadenoughyoucantjustletsomeonecrashacarlikethatwhoisthislaurentishetheguythatwasbotheringyouisthatwhathappenedwhenyouwenttothathousequilaskedmyheartbeatfasterquilwasgettingclosetothetruthwhateveritsnoneofyourbusinessisneeredhopinghewouldgetthemessageihateddoingthistohimheneededafriendverybadlyandtherewasabsolutelynonelefttohelphimiturnedtoleavebutquilinsistedonfollowingmeiquickenedmypacesowhatareyourmommyanddaddygoingtobuyyouaferrarioraporscheforyourfriendstotrashnextquilquippedinarrowedmyeyesandthoughtaboutlashingbackathimbutthensomethingclickedipausedwhereistoodwhatwasthatiaskedquilsighedasiturnedtofacehimhelookeddownathisfeetinanattempttocalmhimselfdownlookimsorryforsnappingquilmurmuredapologeticallynowhatdidyousayidemandedhisbrowfurrowedaboutyourfamilygettingyouanewcarheaskednowhatkindofcariaskedaferraritheotheroneaporscheheaskedifeltthefamiliaralarmbellsgoingoffinmyheadmeaningthatsomethingwaswrongwithtwilighttherewassomethingiwasntseeingporsche911turboimurmuredquilstaredatmeinconfusionhislipsmovedtoformwordsiquicklyshushedhimihadtothinkoutloudtoknowwherethistrainofthoughtwasgoingtheporschethatalicewoulddriveinitalytovolterratosaveedwardfromthevolturithevolturiwaswherearowouldtouchbellaandnotgetanyofhermemoriesbuthewilltouchedwardandaliceandtheyknowallaboutmeiscreamedthelastofthewordsoutinhorrorandgaspedclappingmyhandsovermymouthquilsteppedbackwardlikeiwassomethingcombustablenearanopenflameohmygodohmygodiscreamedwasmuffledbyhandandallofthesuddenicouldntbreathequilstaredatmeinhorrorhishandswereraisedslightlyasthoughtocatchmeiwasfrozenwithwidenedeyesthevolturihowhadiforgottenaboutthevolturiidbeensobusythinkingaboutlaurentthatihadnteventhoughtaboutthevolturilaurentwasnothingcomparedtothemhowcouldibesostupidhowcouldihaveforgottenaboutthebloodthirstyroyalfamilywhydidithinknewmoonwouldbeagoodideairealizediwasstillhavingapanicattackinfrontofquilhestaredbackatmelikehewascontemplatingonsomesortofactioniturnedtolookovermyshouldernoicouldntinvolveanyoneanymoreihadtogetawayfromthemdontfollowmeisaidtoquilhebegantoquestionwhytheniturnedaroundandranasfastasicouldtowardthehousedarlenedarlenecomebackchapter59shockshareansorrythistooksolongihadamassivecaseofwritersblockspecialthankstomynewbetaonyxeyedselleforputtingupwithmycrapandallthefolksonthetwilightedforumforlisteningtomewhinethanksiranasthoughmylifedependedonitmylifedidntdependonmyrunningthoughitdidntdependonanythingiwasdoomediranashardasicouldforaslongasicouldifidbeenthinkingclearlyimighthavebeenalittleproudofmyselfforsprintingasfarasididmymindwasntworkingthewayitshoulditwasntjumpingfromthoughttothoughtthewayaminddoesitrepeateditselfoverandoveritworkedoutthesameequationoverandoverstillgettingthesamedevastatinganswerarowouldtouchaliceandedwardshandsandknowthatiknewasmuchasbellaknewandbellaknewtoomuchtobeleftaliveiranpastthehouseinowsharedwithemilyandbegantoseehousesandapartmentsididntrecognizeihadnoideawhereiwasgoingiseemedtobemovingawayfromtheoceansoimusthavebeenheadingeasticouldntthinkabouthowifiranlongenoughiwouldeventuallyrunintothebordericouldntthinkabouthowihadsomehowmanagedtobringthebiguglypursewithmeorhowishouldntworryaboutrunningacrosstheentireterritorybecauseiwasahumanwhocouldntevenjogamilewithoutgettingwindedthefranticruncametoasuddenendwhenitrippedoverarockandfellonmykneeshalfamileintothebrushoftheforestmypanicscreamedatmetogetbackupmybodydidntrespondwhatwasidoingwherewasiipickedupmyheadandtriedtolookaroundthethickforestsurroundedmejustlikeitdideverywhereinwashingtonirolledoveronmybackandlookedattheskythecloudsweregettingdarkertheywerealwaysgettingdarkeritriedtoslowmyheavybreathingbuticoughedinsteadthecoughsentmeintoaspiralrhythmofpantingandcoughingasitriedvainlytocatchmybreathittookamomentbutirealizedthatwhathadthrownoffmybreathingwasmyownsobbingistoodupshakilyandfrommyvantagepointicouldseeoveraportionoflapushandaglimmerofforksistoodtherelettingthewindslapatmeasitforcedtheheavycloudsinlandthevolturiisaidoutlouditfeltbettertohearsomeonesvoiceevenifitwasjustmetalkingtomyselfilookedaheadofmewheretheborderwassomewherefarawayasihadnowherenearreacheditandvictoriagreatjustgreatiwascorneredlaurentwasnothingcomparedtowhatfacedmenowihadcleverlyhiddenawaytherealdangerfrommyselfedwardwasgoingtobedistraughtandnotthinkingallhellwantistodiehewouldntbethinkingofhisfamilyandhecertainlywouldntbethinkingofmemyteethchatteredtogetherasnightbegantofalloverthefreezinglandiwrappedmyarmsaroundmyselftokeepwarmtootiredtorunorevencryanymoreisatholdingmyselfandrockingbackandforthmymindcontinueditscircularpatternofpanictheresalwaysawayoutisaidtomyselficlosedmyeyesthereisalwaysawayouthowdoyouescapethevolturiyoudontirealizedyoueitherbecameavampireoryoudiedmostofthetimetheydidnthavethepatiencetobotherwithyourtransformationitwouldbeeasierandabetteruseofbloodtojustkillmethatthoughtmademybloodfreezeishiveredviolentlyandsqueezedmyeyesshutilookeddownimmediatelyrecognizingthepositioniwasinfinallyiwascalmenoughtothinktootiredtopanicanymoreiswallowedhardnoisaidoutloudandshookmyheadatthinkingofthebeautifulromanesquecastlethatcametomindikeptmyeyesshutedwardgavemeapassporticouldgothereandiopenedmyeyesandwhatdiesoonernoimurmuredthoughtfullyoricouldstayherethevolturidonthonortreatiesicouldntstayhereicouldrunifdemitricouldntfindbellamaybehecouldntfindmeafterallifedwardcouldntreadmymindthatmeantthatmymindwasprotectedarowouldntbeabletoreadmymindeitherandjanewouldntbeabletodomeanyharmatleastnotmentallyimsureshecouldtearmylimbsoffjustlikeanyotheroldvampireiinhaledsharplyasthoughpreparingforascreamicoveredmymouthbeforeicouldcalmdownthinkokaysowhatifileftandrunrightintovictoriaoutsideofthesafezonewouldshebeabletotrackmeifiusedthedarleneidentificationalliwouldhavetodowasmakeittotheairportinonepieceshewouldntbelookingfordarlenerandallevenasithoughtthewordsiknewthattherewassomeglitchintheplanidhavetopraythatvictoriareallywouldignoremetofocusonbellaicouldntleavewhataboutpaulicouldntjustleavehimbuticouldntjustputhimandtherestofthepackindangereitherthevolturiwouldcomelookingformeihadthebookswhichwerevaluablepiecesofculleninformationevenmorepreciousitwasthewrittendocumentsofbellasmindandmemoriesifiwasntthereforthevolturitokilltheywouldsearchformethemselvesandthepackwouldtrytostopthemthecullenscouldnttakeonthevolturithepackcouldnttakethemeithericertainlycouldnttakethemnoamountoflyingcouldsavemenowmykneesgaveoutandifelltothegroundonmybacksidetheresnowayoutirealizedinhorroriwastrappedwhatwasithinkingthaticouldexistintwilightandmakeitoutwithmyheartstillbeatingthatmademyheartbeatstronglyjustonceenoughtomakemefeelitagainstmysternummyeyeswelledupandtherewasnomoreroomforpanicimgoingtodieirealizedtherewasnohopeformetherewasnobackupplanwhatwouldidowhataboutpaulwhataboutmynewbrotherswhatwouldsamthinkknowingthatoneofhisownpackhaddiedonthejobwhatwouldthisdotoemilywhataboutjaredandkimwhataboutembryjacobmightnotknowwhattodowithoutmepoorquilwouldntknowwhathappenedtomeuntilhephasedandgotthewholestorywhataboutpaulithoughtagainandjasperedwardandalicealiceedwardandbellawouldmakeitoutofvolterrajustfinewhatwouldedwardthinkwhenhefoundoutthathewasresponsibleformydeathwhatwouldjasperdowouldtheyevertellbellaaboutmewouldtheyevertelltherestofthefamilyaboutmeandthebookswhatwouldbecomeofthemthatwasabafflingthoughtthatshookmyattentionawakeirealizedthatitwasbeginningtosprinklethefreezinghumidairmademeawareofthetearsonmyfaceicurledmylegsintomyselfwhileilookedoutovereverythinglikeididwheniwasachildipulledmyoversizedsweaterovermykneessotheelasticendcouldbindmylegstomychestyesthismustbesimilartowhatbellawasfeelingnowwaitingforlaurenttokillhershedidntknowthatthewolveswereprotectingusshedidntknowthatlaurentwasdeadshealsohadtoworryaboutvictoriathatwasthesameexactfearidhadinthefirstsemesterbeforeiknewthatthewolveshadbeenprotectingforkswithoutmypermissioniknewthatfearipulledmyarmsintotheprotectiveshellthatwasmysweatermykneesstretchedtheneckholelettingthecoldairsneakinatleastihadntfailednewmoonileteverythinghappenthewayitshoulddespitemyultimatedemisethatwassomethingtobeproudofbutitdidntmakemefeelanybettercammyigaspedandturnedimmediatelyirecognizedthedarkfigureaspaulistruggledtofreemyselffromtheholdmysweaterhadonmepaullaughedasifoundmyselfcaughtinthearmsofmysleeveslikeastraightjacketeventuallyibecamefrustratedwiththebaggysweaterandpulleditovermyheadthrowingitasideiwasconfidentiwouldntbesocoldinalongsleevedshirtwithhimaroundcammywhatareyoudoingallthewayoutherepaulaskedigottomyfeetandranintopaulcrashingmyfreezingbodyagainsthiswarmonehebarelybudgedbutiknockedthewindoutofmyselfeasygirlididntmoveididntsayanythingimademyselfaparasiteandclungtohiswarmthforalliwasworthcammyistaredatthefabricofhisshirttryingtothinkofeverydetailofhimnexttohimisuddenlyfeltlikeafiveyearoldmypaulwasmagicpaulcouldprotectmefromanythingeverythingwasfinewhenhewasaroundwhathappenedpaulaskednothinghappenedifoundmyselfrespondingnotyetsomethingswronghestatedeverythingiswrongeveryoneisintroubleeveryoneisalwaysintroublewhatdoidoiheldontohimashardasicouldhowdyougetouthereheaskedihikedisaidslowlyhepulledmeawayeasilydespitemydeathgriponhimhisgentlehandspushedmeuntiliwasstandingacrossfromhimhisdeepbrowneyessearchingmineicouldfeelmydrippinghairintendrilsaroundmesoakingmysweaterhestudiedmyexpressionandforaninstantifeltlikehewasactuallyreadingmeiwasmotionlessassomesillypartofmehopedthathewasreadingmebutthelightrainhadmaskedmytearsanditwastoodarktoseemyredeyesandcheekshecockedhisheadtothesidecuriouslymuchlikeadogpleasejustdomethisonefavoranddonthikewhentheresakillervampirearoundokayheaskedpolitelyiknewheknewthenpaulwasreallytakingthisrespectingmyprivacythingtoanextremewhateveryou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oulderssaggedembryhelduphishandsdefensivelybutitprobablywasntdontworryiwaslookingatthemfeelingtheblankexpressiononmyfaceneitherofthemwerepayingattentiontomeasistaredpaulhadmebytheshouldersandledmeawayintothekitchensamandjacobwereatthetableitseemedlikewewereinterruptingaseriousdiscussionjacobbrightenedatthesightofmewhilesamsexpressiondidtheexactoppositetheniheardpaulsvoicebehindmesamcanitalktoyouhesaidiheardtheworryinhistoneiresistedagroannoweveryonewasgoingtoknowsomethingwaswrongjaredwouldprobablyfigureitoutinasecondpaulandsamlefttheroomleavingjacobandialonehehadoneelbowonthetablerestinghisheadinhishandandrubbinghisbrowwithhisthumbinirritationilookedovermyshoulderatthetwoofthemwatchingaspaulbegantosaysomethingtosamastheywalkedoutthedoorifeltmyworrypiqueastheybothgavemeafinalglancebeforesteppingintothefrontyardareyouintroubleiheardjacobaskthiswokemeilookedupatjacobwholookedassullenasedwardeverdidworryingoverbellamaybeheseemedjustatadmorehumanslumpedandavertinghisgazethewayhewasnoisaidnotwithsamanywayipulledoutoneofthechairsacrossfromhimandsatjacobwasthelargestofthewerewolvesbesidessamseeinghimdefeatedlikethisdidntsuithischaracteratallhewatchedmecarefullyfromhisbentpositionhunchedoverthetableareyouiaskednotreallyjacobsaidididntdoanythinghepausedyetistaredathimnotintriguedenoughtoaskwhatthismeantbutihadcaughtthemischievoussparkleinhiseyejacobpulledoutofhissittingpositionandlookedaroundtomakesurethatnoonewascomingtothekitchenhereachedoutandgrabbedthesideofmychairpullingmeunexpectedlytowardhimiwouldhavegivenasurprisedyelpifidbeenfeelingbettercammyineedyoutohelpmehewhisperedurgentlyigavehimmybestmartyredlookcouldntheseethatijustwantedtobeleftaloneididntwantanythingtodowithnewmoonrightnoworeveragainforthatmatterjacobwastoodistractedtoseemytorturedexpressionihavetoletbellaknowwhatweareyouknowthatshessupposedtoknowpleasehelpmejacobsaidistaredathimforamomentanyothertimeiwouldhavebeenrightonboardabsolutelyanyothertimenowiwasntsureificoulddothisanymorejacobstaredatmejacobistartedicouldhearthepitifulsoundinmyowntonemyvoicewaslowandiwasalreadyonthebrinkoftearswithoutpaularoundtodistractmejacobspleadingintensifiedhescootedcloserstillleaninginuntilhisfacewastooclosetomineibackedawaynotlikingthecloseproximityourfaceswereinyoucantleavemetodothisonmyownbellaissocloseicanfeelitshealmostknowsjacobsaidiwantedtocryleavemealoneandstormawaytheshowmustgoonsomeverysmallthoughtremindedmebehindtherestofmymindsdeafeningscreamsareyoureallygoingtoabandonthestorynowthethoughtnearlybroughttearstomyeyesiwantedtowishthisallawayiwantedtogohomebutthevolturiiarguedwithmyselfhoweveritwasnttimeyetwasigoingtospendtherestofmylifeevenifthatonlywasamatterofdaysmopingmyshouldersslumpedileanedoverthetablereadytorestmyheadonmyarmsyesiwouldreallyliketomoperightnowinsteadcammyjacobsaidishothimadirtylookitdidntseemtoregisterwithjacobashelookedthroughthekitchendoorwaytoseeifpaulandsamwerecomingbackifollowedhisgazemindlesslythenjacobswarmhandclaspedovermineandforcefullyyankedmetomyfeetiwassurprisedthatmykneesdidntbuckleundermejacobopenedthebackdoorandpu lledmethroughbehindhimiknowthisispartofthestoryithastobeandevenifitsnotimdoingitanywayjacobsaidtowingmealongicouldntmakeanoiseinprotestilookedovermyshoulderatemilyshousewhattimewasitididntwanttodothisjacobcouldntseethewayilookedpleadinglyathimtherewasaniotaofmethatwasgratefulthoughthiswasthekindofthingthatwasusuallymyideajacobwasforcingmetodomyjobbutistilldidntwanttodoitinmystupefiedtrancejacobeasilytuggedmeovertohisrabbitwhichwasparkedontheothersideofemilyshousejacobskeysjingledinthedarkheopenedmydoorfirstandfussedovermeuntiliwasforcedintothepassengerseatheshutthedoorbehindmeandjoggedovertothedriverssideiwatchedhimmovestillnumbfrommyoverloadofnewinformationjacobjumpedinthecarandyankedonhisseatbeltashestartedthecarthecarlurchedforwardeitherbecauseitwasanoldercarorbecausejacobwasoverexcitedthecarwentonlapushsmainroadifjacobwastalkingicouldnthearhimovertheradiothiswasonetimewhenbeingkidnappedbyawerewolfdidntsuitmeistaredattheroadwatchingitwindfamiliarlyiclutchedmypursetomychestwatchingthedialsandlightsonthedashboardglowinthedarkimissedmyaudiimissedthecullensandnowiwasninetyninepointninepercentcertainthatiwasgoingtodieonewayoranotheritwasallamatterofwhowasgoingtodoitthewayisawiticouldstepoutofthewerewolvesterritoryandbekilledbyvictoriaicouldwaitandhaveeveryoneiknoweventuallybemassacredbythevolturiicouldgotothevolturisoonlyiwouldbekilledoricouldrunandhaveanoldfashionedtrackerhuntmedowntherereallywasnootherwayibegantothinkcammyjacobsvoiceshatteredmythoughtprocessandmademejumpilookedupathimfeelingasadnessinmyeyesthathecouldntseeinthedarkitwasincrediblylateiwantedtogotobedmaybenotbedbutiwantedtobesomewherealonejacobwasstillobliviousashepresseddownthegaspedalwhataremylinesjacobaskedmybrowfurrowedbutididntsayanythingwhatshouldisaywhatwillconvinceheristaredathimhesighedandstaredoutthewindshieldisthisoneofthoseicanttellyoubecauseitwillruinthestorymomentsanyotherdayiwouldhavehadaretorttothatwedroveoverthesoakedstreetsintherabbituntilwehitbellashousejacobparkedasafedistanceawayheturnedtomeimgoingtogoinandjusthopeforthebestihavetobeabletosaysomethingthatwillmakeherguessjacobsaidiwassittingstraightupwithmyhandsinmylapihadnoemotionlefttogiveanymoreandevenlessmotivationtospeakjacoblookedatmeiwasquietmyshockstilldrummingthroughmehesighedmisinterpretingitasreluctanceheunbuckledhisseatbeltandopenedthedooralrightthenifcammywonthelpmebreakinbellashouseireallymustbeonmyownhemumbledtonooneinparticulariwatchedhimwalkaroundthecarididnotwanttobeoutbellastalkingwhatwasidoinghereilookedbackinthedirectionofmyhouseoratleastmyauntshouseifeltstupidnotforthefirsttimesinceibecamepartoftwilightitwasntuntilisawthetreebranchoutsidebellaswindowshakingthatireturnedalittlebittorealityidbeenwillingtogivemylifeforthisstorymorethanonceidpurposelyinfuriatedwerewolvesranwithnonvegetarianvampiresandletvampireswhohadahardtimenotkillingpeoplepracticetheirrestraintonmeyoudthinkthatsomeonewouldeasilydecidetosavetheirownlifeinevermadethatdecisionmaybebecauseiwasconfidentinahappilyeverafterormaybebecauseiseemtobeaspronetomiraclesasbellawastobadluckthiswasdifferentthoughdeathwascertaintyidneverputanyoneelseindangerwhencorrectingthestorybeforenowihadanentirepackofwerewolvestoworryaboutihadalreadymadethedecisionthatedwardandbellasstorywasworthsacrificingmyselfforwasiwillingtheputthewolvesindangertoothevolturidontbotherthewerewolvesinthebooksnottomentionthevolturididnotneedtoknowmoreaboutwerewolvesthanedwardwouldalreadyshowthemisupposedtherewasonlyonethingtodoiwouldhavetodiefirstjacobhoppedinthedriverssideandshutthedoorbehindhimcursingsomethingunderhisbreathihopesheunderstoodwhatiwastryingtotellhershelookedhalfdeadjacobsaidturningthekeyilookedathimasthoughlostinwhathewastryingtosayhelookedbackatmehisdarkeyesworriedasheputthecaringearshewillunderstandrightshellknowinoddeddumblyshellknowiassuredquietlytheridehomewasjustasquietastheridetheretheradioblaredjacobshandswerealittlemoreclenchedthanbeforeiturnedonthelightonthetopoftheceilingjacobdidntprotestandiprobablywouldnthavecaredifhedidireachedintomypurseandpulledoutnewmooninallofitsglorypaulwasrightaboutonethingihadbeenslackingoffinmynewmoonresearchihurriedlyflippedthroughthepagesbeyondthedepressiontheparanoiaandimpendingdoomwerewolfireadaloudifjacobheardmehedidntrespondifeltlikerollingintoaballandcryingnomatterwhathappenedialwaysseemedtomessupworsethanbeforeiwasnotjustadangertomyselfanymoreiwasadangertothepackbythetimewegotbacktoemilyshousetheentirepackwasstilltheresamandpaulwereinfrontoftheporchjaredandembryweresittingtogetherontheporchjaredandembryperkedfromwhateverconversationtheywerehavingiwantedtoslumpintothepassengerseatanddisappearherewegojacobsaidweitwasntlikeievendidanythingjacobcouldhaveveryeasilygottenthroughtodaywithoutmeiopenedthedoorasjacobapproachedsamsamhadahardlookonhisfaceashisarmscrossedoverhischestigotoutofmysideofthecarwalkingaroundthehooduntiljacobandiwerebesideoneanothersamlookedfromoneofustotheotherpaulandembryjoinedhimoneithersidewhatwereyoudoingsamaskedsuspiciouslythisquestionwasdirectedatjacobbutitflickeredtomeirealizedthenthathewouldnaturallyassumethatiwasthesourceofthetroublesinceiwasnttheonewhohadtoobeyinjunctionsitriedtopreparemyselftodefendmyunwillingparticipationintonightsbellastalkingiwaitedforthefamiliarangertorisewithinmeasithadinpreviousconfrontationswithsambutifeltnothinginterestingwewentforadrivejacobsaidcasuallythethreewerewolveslookedtomeihadnothingtogiveimgoingtobedgoodnightisaidtothemallimeantforthistosoundmorecammylikebutitwaslackingmydistinctsmartasstoneiwalkedaroundthewolveswhowerestiffeagertorespondandnoticedsomethingseemedtobeholdingthembackrespectforthebooksormaybetheyfinallytrustedmeandmydecisionsiwalkedbacktowardthehouseandlistenedforanyreactionsbehindmeiwalkedupthestepsandfeltahandonmyshouldwheniturnedisawpaulbehindmehelookedaroundasthoughtomakesurenoonewaslisteningembryhadgonetojacobthetwoofthemtalkingbytherabbitsbumpersamheadedoffinadifferentdirectionwithjaredathisheelspaulsteppedtowardmeandcuppedmyfacewithhislargehandwecantellbythewayyoureactingthatweshouldbeexpectingsomethingpaulsaidistaredathimtheemotionsstartingtoreawakenathistouchunfortunatelyalongwiththegoodfeelingsthatpaulbroughttheoverwhelmingoneswerethreateningtosurfacetooigulpedallineededtodowashearhimoutthenicouldgoinsideandcontinuefreakingoutasmuchasiwantedheleanedinalittlemoreivelearnedmylessonabouttryingtogetinvolvedwithyourbooksillgiveyouyourspacewhenitcomestothatbutthatdoesntmeanimnotworryingaboutyoupaulsaidwithconcerninoddedathimhegavemealovingkissonthecheekitriedtorespondtohimbuttheproperreactionwashardtofindwheniwastryingtobottleallofmyemotionsthankyouwasallicouldsayhegavemeonelastlookofconcernandreleasedmeiturnedmybacktohimandreachedforthedooreagertogotomyroomandfallapartchapter60faultshareanathousandapologiesumforthoseofyouwhoreadbreakingdawnyoucouldprobablyseemydilemmaitreallythrewmeoffandtobehonestiwasthinkingofscrappingthisentirestoryimtheworstprocrastinatoreverithrowmyselfatyourmercydowithmewhatyouwillsowiththatsaidanddoneiwillcontinueilljusthavetobealittlemorecreativesokeepinmindthatcammyhasnotreadbreakingdawnyetireachedmyroomwithoutincidentireachedmyroomwithoutincidenteventhoughihadplanneditididntfallapartthenumbnesswasdeadeningmyemotionsagainiwasntnaiveenoughtobelieveigotoffsoeasilysoiwaitedanothermomentnothinghappenedwhyiwonderedtheniknewitsbecauseiwasrighttherewasawayoutofthissituationicouldlivethroughthistheonlyproblemwasthatthisonlywaywentagainstmymainpolicyforthebooksthatwasthateverythinghadtogotostorynomatterwhatlaurenthadtomakeitoutoflapushalivejasperhadtoattackbellaatherbirthdaypartyjacobhadtofixthebikessothatbellacouldrealizethatitwasadrenalinethatmadeherhearedwardsvoicebutwhatifiwentagainstthebooksandmadeitsoedwardneverwenttothevolturiinthefirstplaceinitiallythissoundedpreposterousitwentagainsteverythingieverstoodforsothisisyourlifeyouredebatingonwhetherornottogotovolterranotsneakingintotheblacksgarageitshouldbeasimpledecisiontomakebuttherewassomethinginsidemethatwasstillappalledbyititwasthenirealizedwhytherewasalittlevoicethatwantedmetokeepgoingandgivemyselftothevolturibeforetheycametofindmeandvictimsandfriendswouldgetinthewayrightandthenwhatreasonwouldedwardhaveforcomingbackbellaneedshimshecantjustsettleforjacobewthethoughtstruckmesosuddenlyitalmostsoundedlikeanotherpersonentirelyiwassureiwasgoinginsanetheniknewexactlywhythisthoughtwassofamiliaritwasmenotmenowbutmetwoyearsagobeforeieversteppedintothereallifeworldoftwilighticouldalmostpictureherwithmyfaceonasixteenyearoldsbodyasshestoodinlinewaitingforhercopyofeclipseoverayearagoshewasthegirlwhohatedwerewolvesandworeateamedwardtshirtthepanickedpartofmeeasilyscoffedattheimmaturegirlandwhataboutmewhataboutmylifeiretaliatediimaginedmyyoungerselfstartingtosaysomethingbutreallytherewasnoexcusewhyshouldigetmyselfkilledonpurposeforedwardandbellaishutoutthetwilightpartofmenoidecidediwasnotgoingtoletsomeoneelsesfateinterruptmylifeandthatwasfinalwhenbellawenttogojumpoffthecliffiwasgoingtogostophermyselfiwouldexplaintohereverythingmyselfiwouldshowherthebooksandevenletherreadthemialmostsmiledatthethoughtofbellaholdingthebookinfrontofherwiththecoverofthepalehandsholdingtheappleitwasanamusingpicturebutsomethingdeepdownstilldidntfeelrightishookthefeelingawayandshutthelightofficrawledintobedleavingthelamplightonbesidemeiturnedawayfromtheharshglowonmyothersideandlookedatmytheshadowiwascastingonmywalliwaitedafewbeatstoallowsleeptotakemeishouldfeelbetterthereshouldbeanoverwhelmingreliefthatididnthavetolookintoredeyeseveragainiwouldneverhavetoeverhavetowitnessarosmorbidcuriosityfirsthandjanewouldnevergettoattemptherpaintricksonmecaiuswouldneverhavetoinsistthatiwasahumanwhoknewfartoomuchandneededtodielikehehadtriedtodowithbellathereliefthatiwouldneverhavetomeetthesepeopledidntfollowneitherdidsleepwithanimpatientsighiturnedoverinbedandwasfacedwithmynightstandwherethelampglowedokaywhatifididgoagainstthestorywhatkindofparadoxwouldthatmakewellletssayiwentuptobellaonthecliffandcalledtohersheturnsaroundandishakeherhandandintroducemyselfthenipullouttheb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topraythatthosehadgoneinthedirectiontheyweresupposedtorightnowmyonlyjobsweretofollowconversationwassupposedtotakeplacetodayandconcentrateonnotlettingthewolvessuspectthatanythingwaswrongwithmeanymorethecoffeebuzzseemedtobehelpingthatalotormaybenotemilycockedabrowontheunscathedpartofherfacegoodmorningshesaidheadingfortherefrigeratoricouldnotstopbouncingthehugecoffeemugonthetablehaddonefartoomuchformyowngoodivibratedinmyseatwithnewmoonwideopenonthetableandtappingmypencilonthepageemilylookedoveratmeasshesetacartonofeggsdownarethosethebookssheaskedmmhmmheywherearetheboysiaskeddistractedemilywenttothestoveandsetthetemperatureillgiveyouthreeguessshesaidgrimlyshemovedovertothesideandopenedacupboardforsomecookingsprayshelookedatmeagainyoureactingweirdshecommentedimademyselfstopandputonanormalexpressiontoreplacemyeverythingsgreatsmileiamiaskedinnocentlyshenoddedthenshefrozehergazeflickeredfrommyresearchonthetablethenbacktomyfaceagaintheboysaregoingtobeokaytodayrightsheaskedifeltmystomachtwistemilydidntsuspectthatiwasgoingtodoanythingshethoughtthatsomethingdangerouswasgoingtohappenialmostrolledmyeyespaulsslipincontrolwasafenderbendercomparedtotherealproblemyesisaidimwoundupfromthecoffeeshenoddedonceiwatchedhertakesomejarsfromthecountertopandscoopsomeingredientsintoamixingbowlwhatareyoumakingmuffinssheansweredmyeyeswidenedilookeddownatmytimelinefortodayembryandjaredwouldbewalkinginwithbellathemomenttheywerereadyifrozehowmuchtimedidihavetogetoutofthehousetherewasonewaytofindouthowlongdotheybakeforidemandedtoknowaboutfortyfiveminutesshesaidijumpedupslammingthechairintothewallbehindmecrapwherestheroadwheretheboysmotorcycleiyelledimpulsivelyemilygavemeanotheroddlookrightoutsidethehouseyoujustgonorthdowntheroadalittlewayshaventyouseenthedirtpathihaddrivenbythatroadshewastalkinghoweveridnevergivenitmuchthoughtifihadimighthavecheckeditoutbeforehandisettledohthenmaybeihadtimebellashouldbetalkingtojakeatthebeachaboutnowrealizingthathewaswerewolfbutnotakillerandjacobwouldrealizethatbellahadnoprejudicesagainstwerewolvesdespiteherrelationshipwiththecullensiforcedmyselftocalmdowncammyletsgetsomedecafnexttimewegoshoppinghowlonghaveyoubeenupnottoolongiliedgatheringthebooksisetafoldednapkininnewmoonasabookmarkidwritteninitandevenbustedoutsomehighlighterstoemphasizeforkeyphrasesithinkiwasbeginningtoputtogetherthingstheboyssaidinconversationemilydoyouknowwhypaulwouldbeangryatjakeistartedthenifeltstupidforaskingthequestionmaybeiwasntbeingasproductiveasithoughtiwasbydeprivingmyselfofsleepimeanisitreallyjustthatpaulwasmadatjacobforconsideringkillingmeifigotbitbyavampireemilyseemedtohavetoconcentrateveryhardtounderstandthewordsthatweretumblingoutofmymouthatrecordspeedifthecullenswereheretheydbeabletofollowmycaffeineenhancedspeechireminiscedhopelesslyumwellcammyyouhavetounderstandthepowerofimprintingimsurewithpaulstemperhedhavetostruggletocontainhisrageatanyonewhothoughtofevenlookingatyoufunnythatpluspaulisntveryfondofbellashesaidiperkedthiswasnewstomeemilylookedupfromstirringthebowlsheisthewholereasonyoureindangerifitwerentforhertherewouldbenobooksthereforenoneofyourinvolvementifrownedatthathmithoughtoutloudsopauldidntreallycareforbellawhyshedidntdoanythingnotonpurposeanywayirolledmyeyesoverprotectivewerewolvesemilybegantopourthebatterintothemuffingpaniwatchedasshewenttoeachlittlecupandpouredonebyoneeachmovementwasthetickingofaclockbutihadtimeiremindedmyselfiwasjustwiredandworriedareyousureyourealrightemilyaskedagainihesitatedrememberingwhyiwaskeepingupthepeppyacteventhoughirememberedtosmilemyshouldersachedfrombeingsotensemyjawwasclenchedhardandmykneestillwouldntstopbouncinginordertogivemyselfsomethingtodoibegantoclearthetableofthemessidmadethelastthingineededwasforbellatocomeoverforthefirsttimeandseehernameandfuturewrittenalloverthebackofmycalculushomeworkemilyopenedtheovenandpulledoutthemetalgratenoisilyshesetthebatchofmuffinsonihopeyoulikeblueberryshesaidcheerilynothanksithinkimgoingtomyauntslatertodayilljusthavesomebreakfastthereitoldheremilystruggledtokeepfromprotestingbutsheclampedhermouthshutandsmiledistoodupgentlywithmyarmsfullofmessyresearchandbooksdotheboyshaveanyspareclothesaroundhereyouknowforphasingemergencieshallclosettopshelfshesaiddistractedlyshepulledoutatimerandtwistedtheknobforfortyfiveminutesiwenttogoputmythingsawayandgetmypurseitdidnttakelongatalltofindthedirtroaditwaspracticallypartofthebackyardjustontheothersideofthetreesitwasamazingthatihadntheardbellastruckgobyituckedmykeysawayinmypurseandbegandownthedirtroadiwalkedandreadatthesametimewithmybookinfrontofmyfacetryingtocatchupandbewiththesameconversationbellaandjacobwouldhavebeforetheenoc**terhmmihummedoutloudthoughtfullymyshoescrunchedonthegravelbeneathmethenaflashofbrownwentbyiscreamedthebrownredwolfstoppedandwhirledaroundtofacemeilookedatjacobheadonhissizesurprisingmeidneverseenhiminwolfformbeforehewasbiggerthanpaulthoughnotbymuchhisdarkeyeswereverymuchthejacobthatbellahaddescribedastheyglistenedthemorninglightlikesunstheymademesmilehijakeisaidheshookhisheadasthoug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datthisconversationwhatwasthepointinfollowinganymoreshellbefineassoonasbellawasturnedaroundheadingbacktowardhertruckiemergedfrommyhidingplaceifollowedthewolvesintothetreestheloudsnappingofjawswasablurofmotionpaulwasblindwithrageattackinguselesslyashewasntthinkingstraightjacobandsameasilytackledhimjacobroundedhimtowardthehugeblackbearlikecreaturepaulwasstilltryingtopushjacoboutofthewaybutjacobwaslargerfencinghimineasieraspaulattemptedtodartaroundjacobslargewolfheaddartedoutwardlikeacobrasnakeandhisjawscruncheddownonhisfrontlegsamroundedaroundtheconflictinfrontofmetoprotectmefromthechaoshisgiantheadturnedtomeiblinkedathimunsureofwhattosaytoagiantwolfsamsamnoddedatmemakingacirclewithhissnoutistaredathimhuhsamexhaleddeeplythroughhissnoutandnudgedmyshoulderwithenoughforcetoturnmearoundistumbledbeforeiunderstoodwhathewasaskingfrommehewantedmetoturnaroundohassoonasiwasfacingthetreesthegrowlsbegantowarbleandchangeintosoftergrumblesuntiltheyturnedintoactualwordsyouwerentsoconcernedwithbellayoujustattackedherjacobsaidimsorryicouldnthelpitanditsnotlikeyouveneverthoughtofattackingcammyonlyifshewasgoingtobeturnedintoavampirethatshouldntmattershesoneofuspaulroaredwellitdoesthecullensaregonethewholegoodguyvampirethingisoveritsyourfaultshegothurtyouretheonewhooverreactednotmejacobbarkedbacktherewasapauseafterthaticouldhearheavybreathingastheheatofthequarrelbegantocalmiwassavingherfromtheleechfromyouyouknowverywellihadeverythingincontrolandnowyouretakingitoutonbellawhenshedoesntevenhaveanyideawhoyouandcammyareitsnotherfaultcammyinsistsonputtingherselfindangeronpurposejacobsaidifeltmyselfblushinembarrassmentasuddenangerswelledwithinmejacobwasrightbelladidntdeservethisshedidntevenknowwhypaulwasmadatherpartofmewantedtoletitslideknowingthatmytimeherewaslimitedtherestofmewasgrowingmoreandmoreloyaltothestorystrengthenedbymydecisiontokeepthingsontrackevenifitcostmylifeisuckedinabreathalrightstopitatfirstithoughtitwassamwhodgiventheorderbutirealizedthatthevoicewasmineandbeforeiknewitiwasreactingwithoutthinkingiwhirledaroundtofacethethreenakedboyscammycammycammytheyallcriedinunisonturninghalfwaytocoverthemselvesiwastoomadtolookmygazewaslockedonpaulsfacepaulyouknockthisoffrightnowbellaisimportanttothisstoryandyouknowitshedidntdoanythingandneitherdidjacobisaidpaulhadbeencoveringhimselfbutnowheseemeddistractedbywhatidsaidhedidntcareanymorethathewasnakedinfrontofmeitdoesntmatterifshespartofthepackornotshesusefulshehasinformationwedontneedherwehaveyoupaularguedhaveyoubeenlisteningtojacobatallshesgoingtotellyoueverythingyouwanttoknoweverythingaboutthecullensandgeneralinformationaboutvampiresthativeneverbeenabletotellyouforexampledidyouknowthatedwardcouldreadmindsiaskedthemtherewasasilenceandjacobhandsstillcoveringtheimportantareasfacedthemitstruebellajusttoldmehesaidcammyturnaroundpleasesamsaidsoundingsternirolledmyeyesfeelingmuchmorelikemyspunkyselfthanihadinawhileidecidedthatthiswasprobablygoingtobeawkwardlatersoiturnedmeanwhileislungmypurseonmyarmandbegantoreachforthespareshortsihadforthemshesrightbellacanspyforusshedoesntowethemanythingjacobsaidiignoredthecommentgrindingmyteethinirritationtherewasanothersilencecammyisthistruesamaskedyesisaidexasperatedirolledmyeyesagaintherewasadeepsighfrombehindmefinallyifoundthepileoffabricinthebiguglypurseandhelditoutforthemtheywerepulledoutofmyhandandilistenedformoreiheardadeepsighyouvetakenthisgrudgeagainstjacobfarenoughpaulweallknowthatjacobdidnothingwrongiheardsamsayicockedmyheadtothesidetestingtoseeiftheboyswereclothedyetsincenooneprotestedtomyturningtolookifiguredeveryonewasdecentiturnedaroundfullytoseethesamandjacoblookingatpaulwhowaslookingatthegroundhepickeduphiseyestoseemetrustbellaitoldpaulhegrimacedattheideaifrownedathimsheputsyouindangerhesaidnoshedoesntidoifyouwanttobemadatsomeonethenbemadatmeicorrectedpaullookedatmealmostasthoughhewasdisbelievingvictoriaisntevenaftermeshesafterbellapaulsfacetwistedintoawholenewexpressionthetensionslowlyfellfromhisfacesoimmediatelythathelookedlikeacompletelydifferentpersonisuddenlyunderstoodhedbeenworriedthatiwasstressedoutovervictoriaonceagainiwasremindedabouthowmuchhecaredaboutmeandhowbadlyireactedtothenewsaboutthevolturiididntwanttoworrypaullikethisweshouldgobacktoemilysibetbellaishavingaheartattacksammentionedshatteringoursilenceheturnedhisheadtojacobandyoujacoblookedupsamsighedexasperatedandhisshouldersslumpedindefeatnomoretellingsecretspleasejacobgaveanodbutitwasclearthathewassuppressingsmilehewasvictorioushedgottenhisfriendbackbellagotherlifevestbackallwasrightforbellaoncemorewellalmostedwardwasstillnowheretobefoundsoitcouldntbeallrightpauldroppedhisgazeandthenlookedatmeagainitsnotjacobsfaultthatigothurtisaidpaulnoddedhetookmyleftarmwherehetracedthepricklystitchesitsminehesaidandhereitwastheselfblameidbeenexpectingforaboutaweeknowiusedmyotherhandtotakehisawayfrommyarmhelookedmeintheeyeandismiledathimididoverreactdidntiiletoutasmallgigglewhichseemedtoupsethimalittlebityouwouldntbepaulifyoudidntoverreactonceinawhilenoharmdoneisaidhedroppedhisgaze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olvesthecullensthinktherearethebetteryoustayherejacobsaidpauldidntcomplainhejustlookedatmeandcrossedhisarmsoverhischestshiftinghisstanceuncomfortablywhoputyouinchargeiaskedsamdidheandemilyarehelpingtheclearwatersleahandsethphasedandsueishavingtroubledealingwithherkidsturnintowerewolvesandadeadhusbandyoucanthankthatcullenforthatjacobsaidspitefullyhewalkedthroughthefrontdoorthescreendoorslammingclosedbehindhimiwasfrozeninthelivingroomtryingtotakeinallthisnewinformationmynextbreathwascutshortinastonishmentleahandsethphasedalreadyalicespresencehadmadetwonewwerewolvesphaseanotherbigsurprisebutitmadesenseiguessmyheadwasspinningwithallthisnewinformationislowlyturnedmyheadtolookatpaulhelookedpainedforamomenthislipspressedtighthelookedindecisiveitoldyouallhellbrokeloosehesaidihesitatedbutevenicouldntdenythathewasrightthecullensreturnwaspushingeverywerewolfissuetothesurfaceallatonceyesthecullensreturnwasgoingtobegoodforbellabuthowmanyotherpeopleweresufferingbecauseofitishookmyheadasmytwilightersensesreturnedthecullensreturnwasagoodthingitwasthereliefattheendofnewmoonthatreassuredreaderseverywherethattherewasstillhopeforthebreathtakingromancethatwastwilightitsalmostoverireassuredhimquilsnappedtoattentionitisquilaskedthebookyoumeanobviouslyhewasallcaughtupinthesupernaturalworldbythispointinoddedhuhquilmusedheshruggedandthenwenttothekitchenisighedimgoingtotakeashoweritoldpaulhelookeddownatmefromhistoweringheightistoodonmytiptoestogivehimakissonthecheekthanksforstickingupformepauldidntreacthejuststoodthereiwaitedyeahsurehefinallyansweredigavehimanoddlookandthenwentbacktotheshowerwarmwaterhadneverfeltsogoodtoanyoneinthehistoryofmankindididntrealizehowthirstyandhungryiwasuntilthewaterdrippedintomymouthiendedupspendinghalftheshowerjuststandingunderneaththeshowerheadwithmymouthopenthedaysweregettinglongerthecloserweweregottosummerihadnoideawhattimeitwasbutitwasgettingdarkoutishookmyheadindisbeliefthatihadbeenoutthatlongunderthesprayithoughtaboutwhereexactlywemustbeinthebookshowmuchtimewassupposedtogobybeforealiceandbellacouldfinallyleaveforitalyidhavetocheckthebooksitwasntuntilthenirealizedicouldntremembereverputtingmypursedownishruggedtomyselfimusthaveleftitinsamstruckismiledtomyselfgladthaticouldfinallygetbacktoresearchingbooksandespeciallythaticouldlivelongenoughtoresearcheverydetailofeclipsetoosoiusedtheshowertimetothinkaboutthebookssamknewbetterthantogothroughthemnowistartedtothinkaboutjacobbutitwaseasytoshakeoffmyfrustrationwiththewerewolfafterallidbeenfrustratedwithhimforyearsthenmythoughtswentbacktomylastconsciousmomentsifrozeasireachedtowardthetowelsiremembereddecidingtotellhimaboutnewmoonirememberedwantingtotrusthimwhatexactlyhadisaidtohimiwrackedmybrainurgingittorecallthosegroggymomentsinmrswhiteshousebutitwasallsohazyihadntsaidanythingincriminatinghadiisteppedoutoftheshowerandchangedintosomefreshpajamasirakedmyfingersthroughmyhairandwrappedmyhairupinatowelandsteppedoutjacobembryandjaredwerenthomeyetpaulandquilweresilentlywatchingsomesportsbroadcastingshowwherecommentatorswerearguingabouttherookiesforthenextbaseballseasontheywereonoppositesidesoftheroompaulhadtheremotehenoticedmyentranceimmediatelyandstoodupyouhungryheaskedquicklyandsettingtheremoteasidestarvingiansweredwithasmilequilwatchedasicrossedtheroomfollowingpaulintothekitchenhealreadyhadapotofmacaroniandcheeseoutonthestoveismiledappreciativelyasheservedmehegrabbedapaperplateandploppedaspoonfulonmyplatemakeitawerewolfsizedmealifeellikeihaventeateninforeverpaultriedtosmilebutitwasobvioussomethingwasbotheringhimheletthatfakesmilefallwhenhehandedmetheplatehiseyesmetmineweneedtotalkhewhisperedmyheartsankicouldntgetamomentspeacelatelynoneofuscoulditooktheplateandheledthewaytothekitchentablehepulledoutachairformeandimmediatelysatintheonebesideitthemomentihitthechairheleanedintomecamyousaidsomestuffthatsreallybotheringmepaulsaidtheyweretheverywordsiwasdreadingtoheariwasincrediblyconcernedbutyouwouldntbeabletotellbytherateiwasshovelingfoodintomymouthwhatdidisayisaidcoveringmymouthsohecouldntseemetalkingwithmymouthfullyousaidsomethingaboutawaryoualsosaidsomethingaboutbellalosingcontrollikeacullenlikeavampirehesaidpaulpausedheseemedunsureapparentlyhewascomingtohisconclusioncammyarethecullensgoingtobitebellathehorrorofhedsaidhitmesofastthatigaspedandinhaledfragmentsoffoodpaulwatchedmecoughintomyhandthatwascoveredwithabracehereachedoverreadytopatmybackandprobablygivemetheheimlichmaneuverifineededitishookmyheadnoichokedafteriforcedmyfooddownmyesophagusicouldnthavesaidanythingaboutawartheresnowarstheresnobitingpaulstudiedmyexpressionforamomentiknewhewasprobingfortheliethatmusthavebeenwrittenallovermyfacehowcouldihavesaidthatbelladoesntgetbittenintheentireseriesatleastnotasfarasivereadasforthewarwelliguesstechnicallytherewasgoingtobeawaragainstthenewbornsbutitwasntgoingtobethekindofwartheywerethinkingofthebattlewasntevengoingtolastanhournoonewasgoingtogethurtokaymaybejacobwasbutitsnotliketherewouldbeanypermanentdamagecammyiknowyoudidntknowwhatyouweresayingbutihavetoknowthetruthisbellagoingtobebittenpaulaskedquietlyistaredathimnoitoldyoufromtheverybeginningthecullensdontwanttochangebellaisaidandtechnicallythatwastrueedwardwoulddoanythingtokeepherhumanhoweveritwascertainlyastretchbecausehewasgoingtohavetodoitanywayyourelyinghedeterminediamnotisaidwellsortofpaulslappedhishandsdownonthetableinfrustrationdamnitcammywhydontyoujusttelluswhatsgoingtohappenhehissedinawhispersoquilwouldntoverhearyoudidnttellanyoneaboutwhatisaiddidyouiwasdruggedthatsnotfairisaidchangingthesubjectpaulfrownednotyetandthatdoesntmatterwedeservetoknowifavampireisgoingtoattackahumanhesaidattackiscoffedabiteisanattackthecullensdontattackbellacoulddiepaulsaidgivingmeaseriouslookifrownededwrdwouldntletherisaidconfidentlypaulwasntamusedifbellaismadeintoavampireshecouldkillpeoplethentheirselfcontrolidontneedanylecturesaboutvampiresiknowmoreaboutthemthanyoudoisnappedsilencinghiminmidsentencethenirealizedthatireallyknewnothingaboutbellastransformationshecouldkillpeopleshecouldkillcharlieormikenewtonormeishookawaythatthoughtyoupromisednottotellthepackanythingisaidiremindedhimpaulhesitatedihadntrealizedthathishandsweregrippingtheedgeofthetablehestaredatitconcentratingwhenherealizedispokeheliftedhisheadyeahipromisedhesaidisawhisjawclenchthelittlevampirethefortunetellingonealiceicorrectedthatoneistheonlyonehererightheaskedinoddedhenoddedbackandyouresureshethinksyouredeadheaskedyesshecalledmebeforeijumpedtowarnmethatiwasgoingtodieisaidhebreathedoutasighofreliefdistractedwithsomethoughtherubbedhischinicontinuedtoeattogivehimsilencetothinkbutididntlikethedeviouslookonhisfacehelookedlikehewascomingupwithsomeplaniwonderedifthiswaswhathefeltlikelookingatmewheniwasplanningsomethingstupidquilenteredtheroomlookingoutthewindowsanxiouslyimgoingtogoforarunyouthinksamandleahareoutthereimfeelingantsyquilsaidhesmiledexcitedlypaulshruggednotreallycaringhowquilchosetospendhistimehelookedatmeagainasquilcrossedtheroomtoleavethekitchenwewerebothquietuntilweheardthedoorclosebehindhimidontwanttokeepthisinformationawayfromthepacktheyhavearighttoknowpaulsaidhorrorstruckmepaulwastotallymisinterpretingthiswhatiftheydecidedthiswasgroundsforattacktheycertainlydidntwaitforlaurenttobitebellabeforetheyattackedhimyoucantishriekedpaulsatupstraighttheyshouldknowthattheirfamiliesareindangerhesaidnoonesindangerisaidwithperfecthonestyeveryoneisindangerifthereisgoingtobeawarpaularguedtheresnowarisaidraisingmyvoiceagainifeltthetwingeofguiltihadwheniknewiwaslyingirolledmyeyesannoyedwithmyselfatleastitwasntthekindofwarthatpaulwasthinkingofipromiseyoueverythingwillturnoutfineisaidregrettingthaticouldntexplainexactlyhoweverythingwouldbeokaypaultookadeepbreathyourdefinitionoffineandourdefinitionoffineareverydifferentyousaidyourselfthatyoureonbellassidehesaidishruggedsoshesclearlyonthevampiresidehesaidialmoststartedtoretortsomethingbuthewasrighteclipsewaswherebellawoulddecideherfateremainhumanwiththewerewolvesorliveforeverasamonsterwithedwardshewasgoingtochooseedwardshewasgoingtorunwiththevampiresyoudontjustwanttogobacktoforksyouwanttogobacktothecullensdontyouiwassilenticouldntdenythatiwouldsufferathousandshoppingtripswithaliceifitmeantmovingbacktoforkslapushwasntmyhomenomatterhowhardidtriedtomakeitwhileilovedthewerewolvesicouldntrunwiththemwithouthavingtobetraythemtomakethestoryrightididntbelongherepaulsawsomethinginmyfacethatmadehimstandupandslamhischairinthetableslidnoisilyacrossthefloorafewinchesintheimpacthewentbacktothelivingroomitshockedmetoseehimthiswayihaventseenhimthisangrywithmesincebeforethecullensleftandiknewexactlywhatitwasupsettinghimtheverythingthatseparateduswasbackisighedheavilyishouldbecelebratingandplanningawelcomehomepartyicouldntbehappyaboutseeingmyoldfriendsagainnotwithpaulfeelingthewayiknewhefeltipickedupmyplateofmacaroniandcheeseandwenttogofinishmydinnerinmyroomislammedmybedroomdoorbehindmeiknowivesaidthisamilliontimesbutnowireallyreallycouldnotwaitforthecullenstocomebackchapter64almosthappyendingsharethankyouforbeingpatientthiswaseditedbyrandswhowasahugehelptometodayandforthatshegetsahundredkarmapointsitwaslatealreadyandiknewthewolvesweregoingthroughalotilockedmyselfawaypretendingtobeasleepwhenanyoneknockedtheyhadalottodealwithandiwasntgoingtobeouttheretomakethingsmorecomplicatedforthemeventuallythoughididfallasleepitwasweirdwakingupthenextdayandseeingpaulsmassiveformcurledupinjasperschairatmybedsidemyhanddangledofftheedgeofthebedhishandstretchedoverthearmrestofthechairtoholdmydanglinghandhewasntasleeplikeidbeenisearchedtheroomstillcautiousbecauseofhowpaulandileftthingsitwastoobrighthowlonghadibeenasleepwhenpaulsawthatmyeyeswereopenhesnappedtoattentiongoodyoureupcamweneedtotalkhesaidimmediatelydontyouhaveenoughinformationiaskedsarcasticallyfeelingtheburdenofbeingthetwilightfortunetelleragainiwonderedifaliceevergotsickofdoingthisbutpaulsurprisedmenonotaboutthatwehavetodosomethingabouttheseunhappyendingspaulsaidthatgotmyattentionipulledmyselfuptositagainsttheheadboardpaulstoodupanduninvitedlyhoppedontothemattressbouncingovertomysideifitw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esokayheyigottagocharliebutillseeyouthenalrightthanksandtrytogetbellatogoithinkitwillbegoodforbothofthembillysetthewirelessphonedowniwishyouwouldntdothatjacobsaidwhatpressuringcharlietogetinvolvedjacobsaidbillyshruggedhisheavyshouldersandpushedhischairacrossthetileflooritwillgiveyousomeleveragecharliesamanofgoodsenseheknowswhatsgoodforhisdaughterbillysaidpushingthroughthedoorwayjacobseyeslockedonmebillywheeledbesidehissonwhowasatthedoorjacobseyesstayedonmealmostaccusinglyilookedbetweenthefatherandsoninconfusionwhatdididothatguybellasfriendjacobsaidbillyfollowedhisgazetolookatmeasifialreadyknewwhichfriendtheonethatpukedinthetheatrejacobsaidmikeiaskedinshockyeshesaidthathehadafriendlookathiscarandhecouldntfixithisfriendrecommendedhimtomejacobsaidiwasstillconfusedmikenewtoncamebytoaskyouaboutcarswhatsthebigdealafteritoldhimiwastoobusyhesaidhisfriendaskedhimtoaskmeifideverheardofagirlnamedcammyjacobsaidiwasgladiwasntdrinkinganythinginthatmomentbecauseiwouldhavedoneaspittakeinsteadiwentrigidmymindbegantospinthroughideaswhatfriendofmikeswouldaskaboutmeinevermadeanyfriendsinforksotherthanthecullensohisaidbeforemybrainmadetheconnectionirememberedaconversationedwardandmikehadintheparkinglotmyeyespoppedopenwideohijumpedoffthestoolhealreadyleftjacobsaidicouldnotcontaintheuselessurgetoruntowardthedoorasificouldcatchmikewhenhewasalreadygoneirippeditopenandlookedoutsidetherewasnothingbuttreesandrainilookeddowntheroadandleanedoutovertheporchididntseeanycarorheadlightsinthedarkeningnightisighedinexasperationiwassoclosetosomeonefromforkstheywerejustherealliwouldvehadtosaywasyesimcammypleasetelledwardimalivejacobcouldntholdmikehostagethejigwouldbeupandiwouldhavetobeletgounfortunatelyitwastoolateforthatihadntbeenatthedoorwhenjacobanswereditdamnitisaidstampingmyfootbutiwasstillsmilingbecauseiwasalreadythatmuchclosertothecullensmaybetheyknewiwasalivemaybetherewasnopointtohidingmeanymoreishutthedoorandturnedaroundmysmiledwasstillonmyfacedoesthismeanicangobackiaskediwouldntcountonittheydontknowanythingmaybemikewasjustcurioushedoesntknowwhathappenedoverspringbreakitcouldbeacoincidencejacobsaidshruggingigrinnedandshookmyheadnotlikelyandmikebarelyevenknowswhoiamthiswasinthebookbellaheardedwardtalkingtomikeintheparkinglotabouthiscaratschoolisaidmywordsquickeninginexcitementiwasgigglingalmosthystericallyidontthinkthismeansanythingcammyjacobsaidshakinghisheadheshruggedsorryifrownediwouldtalktosamaboutthishewouldhavethefinalsaythingssettleddownandtheskygotdarkerthesunwassettingbehindthecloudsbillyannouncedthathewasgoingtomakedinnerjacobandiwerebothinourseparateworldsofthoughthesatonthecouchwatchingthescreenbutnotreallypayingattentiontowhatwasoneifpaulcametopickmeupbeforewewerefinisheddinnerhewasprobablygoingtofinishoffwhateverspaghettiwasleftbeforewewentbacktoemilysjacobandimetgazesafteramomentihadasuddenideamaybeicouldusejacobtomyadvantageitwouldbesortofmeantoexposehisweaknessforbellaformygainbutperhapsicouldgetjacobtocooperatewithmyescapeifitmeantmybringingbellaheremytwilighterinstinctsopposeddeliveringbellatojacobwouldgoagainsteverythingideverstoodforasamemberofteamedwardontheotherhandthiswasbecomingmorethanjustafanaticsdreamcometrueitwasntjustthatiwantedtoseethecullensiwantedtoseemyfriendsandmyboyfriendwaskeepingmefromthatsomethingthatwouldhavebeenseenaspossessiveandpsychoticinanyotherworldsorryedwardthistimemyneedscomefirstheyjakeisaidjacoblookedatmewhatifyouhelpedmeescapeiaskedhimhestaredatmeicouldseetheglimmerofagrimsmilesneakingacrosshisfacehewasstartingtolaughiknewwhatwouldmakehimtakemeseriouslyinexchangeformebringingbellaheretherewasthepointofnoreturnnowthatidsaiditoutlouditwaspossibleforthewolvestoknowwhatiwasplanningunlessjacobwaswillingtocooperateheblinkednoonesallowedtodothatisaidinjunctioniaskedyeahjustasaprecautionjacobsaidinoddedslowlysamhadblockedthatescapenoonecouldbreakinjunctionsexceptforpaulandtherewasnowayhewasgoingtobehelpingmehowcouldjacobgetoutofaninjunctionstupidquestioncouldtherebealoopholeiaskedhedeliberatedforamomentthenhesighedandshookhisheadidontthinksoicantdosomethinglikethatanywaypaulwouldkillmejacobsaidhelookeddownagainbillyannouncedthatdinnerwasreadyjustintimeforpaultoknockonthedoorihadtohurryevenifitmeantgettingbellabackitdoesntmatterjacobsaidsoftlyheblinkedquicklyatthetelevisionmyheartwrenchedtightenoughtomakemeavertmygazemytimewithjacobwasdonewhichwasbothareliefanddisappointmentitwasareliefbecauseiwouldnthavetoworryaboutwatchingwhatisayaroundthemanditwasadisappointmentbecausesomuchhadhappenedtodayiwouldhavetocomeupwithabetterescapeplanthansendingalettertoisaacrandallinregardstomyscholarshippaulwasntstupidenoughtobelievethatsomeonewithmygradesgotascholarshipanywayafailedattemptwouldjustbringattentiontothefactthatihadntgivenupyetbutihadnewfaithwithmikecomingherelookingformefreedommustbeclosetherewasarealescapeplanonthehorizonicouldfeelitpaulandiwenthomeafterthathehadntbeenhappytohearaboutmikesvisitbuthewasactuallypleasedthatjacobhadmanagedtokeepmesecretinspiteofitwedrovehomeinsilencebothofusthoughtfu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doutthedoorintothespringrainiwasscoopedupandsqueezediclosedmyeyestightinpaulsembracerelishingitnowthatisawthathewassafeicouldntbelievehowworriedidbeenabouthimbutthenwhenipulledawayandsawhisfaceallicouldthinkaboutwashowhappyiwasthatemmetthadnthurthimareyouokayiaskedyeshesaidhisbodywasrigidwithtensionhekissedmycheekimissedyouthoughimguessingyouknoweverythingyesisaidicouldsaythatwithcompletecertaintycomeonletsgettoemilyshouseforsomeprivacyleahcanpaulandjaredtakeyourcarsamaskedsureleahsaidshesoundedlikeshecouldveaddedasnidecommentontopofthatbutresistedforthesakeoftheemergencywewenttoanolderbluecarthatleahhadinheritedfromherdadwhenhediedkimdidntgotothepartyattheclearwaterseventhoughjaredhadwantedhertoforthesakeofbeingcautioustoeveryonessurpriseshewonthatargumentkimhadawaywithlogicthatnotevenjaredcouldcompetewithheyguyskimsaidinaflashjaredreachedoutandpulledherinsidethecarskillfullycalculatingherfallsoshelandedsafelyintheseatsheblinkedinsurpriseandthenjaredbuckledherseatbeltandshutherdoorwhoashegiggledtuckingastrandofblackhairbehindherearpaulandigavehermatchinggravelooksintherearviewmirrortohintattheseriousnessofthemeetingthiswasntjustgoingtobeanotherhalfhourofmemoaningaboutthecullenshersmiledroppedohsomethinghappeneddidntitshesaiddontworryitsovernowbutweneedtohaveameetingjaredassuredherweturnedoutofhergrandparentsdrivewayanddowntheroadtowardemilyshousethegoodthingaboutlapushisthatthehouseswereallgenerallyinthesameplaceitwasashortdrivetoemilyssamhadtakenthepickuptruckwithemilyeveryoneelsehaddecidedtorunbackweparkedandquicklyjoinedthegroupinthelivingroomeyesturnedourwayasweenteredsamhadtakenhisnaturalplaceincenterstagecammywhereisbellasamsaidipausedtherewasaheavysilencewhereeveryonewaslookingatmeifeltthenaturalurgetoshrinkawayfromtheirgazefloridaianswereddutifullyisshereallyjacobaskedipausedwhatsallthisaboutiaskedthemindreaderwasnttherewithhercharliesaysthatheandbellawentsomewheretogetherwheredidtheytakehersamaskedcalmlywhyweretheyexpectingadifferentanswermybrowfurrowedjacksonvilleispecifiedtheystaredatmeidontreallyhaveanexactaddresshandyrightnowsheswithhermomedwardknewvictoriawascomingandplannedforthetriphewentwithherhowdidheknowaliceishruggedastheanswerwasobvioustomeisthattheblondequilaskedrosaliemuststillbefreshinhismemorynothepsychiconeisaidtiredlyeyesturnedtojacobyouregoingtohavetodecidenowforsurenomoreflipfloppingsamsaideitheryoulethergooryoufightforherimfightingforherjacobrespondedwithoutanothermomentsthoughtwedontneedanymorebloodsuckersleastofallonethatusedtobebellaichokedbackmyoffensepaulsethishandonmyshoulderasifsensingmytensionieasedalittlemoresowehaveanewplanweneedtohelpbellaandjacobgettogethersamsaidjacobseemedtobrightenalmostimmediatelyhedidntsmilethefamoussmileidheardsomuchofbuthestoodmoreconfidentlyistilldontthinkitwillbethathardjacobalmosthadherbeforeeverythingspiraledoutofcontrolduringspringbreakembrysaidnistartedandthenstoppedmyselfshortluckilynoonewaspayingattentiontomepaulpulledmeintohimhewasshirtlessunderneaththerainjacketthewateronhimseemedtohavealreadyturnedintosteamandroseoffofhimhewasperfectlydryshesaidshewasntinterestedinjakesethsaiditwasstrangetohearitfromhimbecausehewasntthereatthetimehemusthavegottenitfromoneofjacobsmemoriesbutwhatifwecoulddivideherloyaltiesleahsaiddeviouslyshewaslookingatthegroundinalongtshirtshekeptatemilyshousecompletelybareunderneathshewassmallenoughthattheoldtshirthadfithertomidthighbutitwasveryprovocativelookingespeciallysinceithadbelongedtosamemilyhadneversaidanythingthoughdivideloyaltiesiechoedwhythecullenshadneverdoneanythingwrongtoheriwasproudofthecalmtoneidbeenabletomanagepaulhandreadjustedonmyshoulderyoumeantosaythatbellaisonehundredpercentsatisfiedwithshepausedtoscrambleforanameedwardifeltatinyflareupshewasprovokingmyownloyaltytothecullensyesisaidanotherpausefilledtheroomiwasntsurewhyfindthechinkintheirrelationshipandexposeityoudontdoitformebutweallknowwhatthegirlsatschoolsayaboutyouyourenotabadlookingguymaybeitstimethatyouusedthatleahsuggestednooneopposedbutjacoblookeduncomfortableevenihadheardwhattheentirefemalesophomorestudentbodyhadtosayaboutjacobwontthatpissoffthecullenssethaskedtherewasapausewelldealwiththatwhenwegettoitsamsaidifeltmyselfrelaxinshocktherewassomethingverydarkandominousaboutthismeetingbeinghereinthisroomwhiletheyweretalkingaboutthingsiwasfirmlyagainstremindedmeoftheendoftwilightwhenpauljaredandsamwerehuntingforlaurentthistimeicouldkeepmycoolthoughwhenisbellacominghomesamaskedjacobseyeswereshininginmydirectionididthecalculationinmyheadtheyleftfridaymorningbutthatwouldbetheonlydaytheytookofffromschoolalsoithadtobethreedayssincebellawouldthinkthatjacobwasworriedthattheydchangedhertheyhadtobebackonsundayitoldthemandthatwasthateveryoneslowlywounddownfromtheexcitementslowlypaulsatdownanddiscussedwhathadhappenedwithemmettistaredathimasheretoldthestoryexactlyasiknewitfromjacobmyheartwrenchedwhentheytalkedabouthowfrustratingjasperwaswithhisabilitythatabilityhadmademefeelmuchbetterwhenpaulhadhurtmeifoundmyselflostinmyownthoughtsastheywentonspou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hiseyesclosedandgentlyendedthecontactbypressinghisforeheadagainstminemyheartwasthrummingandisuddenlyfoundmyselfwonderingwhatdifferenceitwouldmakeifiaddedjustonemoretardytomypermanentrecordbutpaulknewbetterhepulledawayandlinkedhisarminminetoleadustoourfirstclassisighedinirritationschoolgetsinthewayofeverythingareyougoingtoleavemeinsuspensetellmewhathappenedwhenyougottoforkspaulsaidwhatdoyoumeannothinghappenedtherewasjustalotoftalkingisaidhelookeddownatmecockingabrowasifdisbelievingwhatdidyouthinkwouldhappenhepauseddeliberatingonthatidontknowpauladmittedthecrowdspartedforusasusualeyeslookedupfromtheirtextbookstowatchthefreakswalkbyweignoredthemyoureleavingmeinsuspenseiescapedlikeafugitiveyouhelpedandtheyallknowitwhathappenediaskedpaulexhaledandrolledhiseyesleahhadamuchexpectedfitabouthowialwaysputyoubeforeanythingelseafterthatnothingsamwasupsetbutwhenjacobhadthatdaywithbellahefeltalittlebitbetterheneedstogettoworkonseducingherifweregoingtosaveherfromromeopaulsaidhisnearlyblackeyeslookedaheadatwhereweweregoingrefusingtomeetmineofcourseitwasbecauseiwasrootingforromeoandheprobablyknewitaretheymadatmehegrinnedalittleyoualwaysassumeeveryonesmadatyoutheyusuallyareilaughednotthistimenoonesmadjustalittleonedgepaulsaidheopenedthedoorallowingmeinsidefirstistoodinthedoorwayandlookedathimicouldtellhewasresistingtheurgetorollhiseyeswerealwaysonedgedontworryaboutanythingnooneisexactlyappalledatyourbehavioritookinabreathihopenotitwasstilloddthatwewereforcedtocontinueourlivesasthoughnothingeverhappenedistillhadtotakeatestthatdeterminedwhetheripassedorfailedaclassistillhadtoforcemymindawayfromthethingsthatwereimportantbacktomyownlifethatihadgottenusedtoneglectingthefinalwasntsohardsinceitwasjustenglishievenhadtimetostudythenexteclipseeventwhichwasbellassecondescapeorratherjacobsinventivejailbreakibitmylipanxiouslyicouldntwaittogetthatphonecallfromedwardandaliceandjasperonceagainiwasremindedthattherewasnoonegrouptodefendhereedwardandjacobweregoingtobecompetingforbellasaffectionandsinceiwasntallowedtoplayforteamedwardorteamjacobiwasjustgoingtohavetogobythebooksigroanedonceagaindeliberatingthefactthaticouldactuallypickasideicouldthwartjacobsattemptsmaybeevenwithouthimbeinganythewiserbuttherewasareasonforhimbeinghereintwilightjustlikeiwasiknewbetterthantosteerfromthebooksnomatterhowinsufferableiknewjakewouldgetibettersetupsomethingwithjacobforfridaywhenthebellrangandpaulhadcollectedallthepaperswewerefreetogoiknewiwouldseethepackduringthebreakiwassuddenlynervousunsureofhowthesepeopleidcometounderstandlikefamilyweregoingtotakemeafteriranofftotheirarchenemiesbutpaulwasntnervoussoimimickedhispostureandpretendedlikeiwasnteitherwejoinedthepackatthetablewhereeveryonestoppedtalkingtolookatuspaulnudgedmetotakeaseatintheawkwardsilencebutistillfeltlikesomethingneededtobesaidiwouldntapologizeiddonethatenoughanditwasgettingoldluckilyquilcouldalwaysbetrustedtobreaktheicenomatterhowbrutallyorembarrassinglyhehadtohewavedhishandinfrontofhisnoseandsniffedwhoothestinkgeezdarleneyousmelllikeyouvebeenrollinginbloodsuckerjacobsmirkeddownathisfoodbutfromthelooksiwasgettingfromembryjaredandsethicouldtellthatwhateverismelledlikereallywasbotheringthempoorpaulmustbesufferinginsilencepaulrolledhiseyesandsatfirsttakingmyhandandpullingmedownbesidehimifyoucanstandyourownsmellalittlevampirescentwonthurtyoupaulsaidjaredwrinkledhisnoseindiscomfortughitburnshesaidkimshookherheadathimandgavehimalittlenudgeofdisapprovalhowdyourfinalgosheaskedmeishruggedokayiguesstomorrowilltakemycalculustestisaidkimperkedyouwanttostudyforitafterschoolsheaskediwouldneeditbutirememberedthatalicewouldbewaitingformeathomeibitmylipandthoughtidontthinkicanisaidwincingapologeticallyohwellthatsokayimsuretheycanhelpyouthebloodsuckerstutorembryaskedwithhismouthfullitdbeenanhonestlycuriousquestionbutquilsnortedoutloudyeahembrytheytutorthatmustbewheretheygotalltheirmoneyembrygrowledalittleandsluggedquilinthearmwithsurprisingquicknessquilgaspedinshockandgrabbedhisarmowistartedtorespondwhenjacobleanedoverthetablesmilingwidelywheredyougetthoseclothesjacobaskedisighedthiscertainlywasntlikebrunchorlunchinforkswhenihadabsolutelynoattentionwhatsoeveralicelikestodresspeopleupisaidsoyoureliketheirdolljaredaskedsomewhatdisgustednoisaiditrynottoletthembuymestuffbuttheyliketospoilpeopletheyevengotmethisphoneihelditupandkimseyesglistenedjacobtooktheslimdevicesniffedandthenhelditasfarawayfromhisnoseaspossibleeveryoneonthatsideofthetableflinchedexceptforquilwholookedlikehewasgettinganideayouhavetheirnumberquilaskedmeyeahimsureitsalreadyprogrammedquilthrewalookatjacobandthenembryjacobsmiledbackcrankcallembrysaidreadingquilsslygrindontyoudaregiveitbackishoutedpoppingoutofmyseatbeforeanyonecoulddoanythingpaulleaptupandsnatcheditjacobdidntbothertoplaykeepawayandeveryonewaslaughingwhichmeantthathopefullytheyhadneverplannedonactuallycallingthemigloweredatthemwhileitookthesilverdeviceandrubbedtheglassscreenonthetailofmysweatertocleanthefingerprintsoffheycamwednesdayispaulsbirthdayjacobsaidpaulwentrigidbesidemeandhis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leimworriedthatjacobwillnotbellacouldbeveryhurtandicouldntdoanythingyouunderstandmyconcernismiledalittlehopingitwouldkeepthatdeepsadlookfromcomingbackhesnotlikethatisaiddontbeworriedaboutjacobhedoesntneedyourhelptocrashandburnwhenitcomestobellaedwardsmiledalmostcruellyiwouldbelyingtosaythatihadntbeenjustasrelievedtoknowthatjacobcouldntwinbellaoveredwardsbrowfurrowedatsomethoughtbutbellastillwantstoseehimmaybeyoushouldbediscussingthatwithbellaitsnotuptomeorjacoballyoucandoissupportherisaidedwardlookedannoyedheturnedlikehewasgoingtoleaveandthenhalfturnedinmydirectionagainpleasecammyhelpusmaintaintheboundariesbetweenusitsbadenoughrosalieandemmettalmosttoreapartyourwerewolfedwardsaidclearlyeditinghimselfthenhewentevenfurthertoaddpaulifeltacertainamountofprideinthesmalldisplayofrespectbutboundariesweretheenemyinthisbooksoididntanswerhimisjaspercomingoveriaskedstillsmilingedwardraisedhisbrowsgivehimsometimeithinkhewantssometimewithaliceedwardsaiddistractedlytherewassomeunderlyingmeaningtothatmyeyeswidenedwasitjustmeorwastherealotofsexualtensioninforkstodayohimsurehellstopbylaterthoughhealwaysdoesedwardsaidinoddedandlookedawaypretendingihadntheardthataboutjasperandaliceitwasverystrangetorealizethatthecouplesotherthanedwardandbellaorevenjacobandbellawerejustasphysicallyromanticwitheachotherprobablymoresogocheckonbellashemissedyouisaidtherewassomethingedwarddidntneedtoheartwiceididntreallyseetheblurofmovementorevenfeelthegushofwindhewasjustgoneiblinkedafewtimesanautomaticreactiontoseeingsomethingthathadbeentheresuddenlydisappearthelightfromthelivingroomwasglowingfromthedoorwaywhereheoncestoodthehousewasprobablyprettycleanofwerewolfscentbutthesamedidntgoformeiwenttothebathroomforaquickshowerbeforeanyothervampirescameoverididntseejasperuntilistumbledoutofbedthenextmorningandwanderedintothediningroomonthewaytothekitchenhewassittingattheheadofthetablewhereunclebobwouldbesittingifhewereherereadinganewspaperiyawnedandstretchedreadyingmyselftomakesomeconversationwhenicaughtthefrontpageofthenewspapersixmorepeoplemissingandadumpsterhadbeenfoundonfirebythelooksofblazinginfernointhepictureonthefrontpageistaredatitforalongmomenttryingtorememberwhyitwasthatiwasntdoingmorethenirememberedthatdoingmorethanrunningpeoplesliveswouldbeimpossibleitwashardenoughasitwaswithoutdecidingtoturnintoasuperheroandsavingthepeoplewhoweresupposedtodiegoodmorningjaspersaidwithoutlookingoverthepaperhesoundedchipperthanheusuallydidmorningisaidtryingtosoundmoreenthusiasticthaniwasiwanderedintothekitchentellingmyselfthatmyconsciencewasclearlikethewolvesseattlewasoutofmyjurisdictioniwentstraighttothecoffeepotiwonderedifitwashealthythatsomeonemyagewasasintocaffeineasiwasprobablynothowwashuntingiaskedoverthebarasireachedforacupfinehowarethedogsidetectedaslightshadeofannoyancefineirespondedinthesametonejasperloweredthenewspapertherewasanobviousquestioninhiseyesashefoldedupthenewspaperandstooduphelookedlikeayoungmanagainwithoutsuchaclichedfatherfigureactivityinfrontofhimhisleanbodysaunteredoverlookingarounddistractedlyialreadytalkedtoedwardaboutthedogsisaidusingairquotesjaspernoddedslowlywhataboutseattleheaskedilookedupandblinkedinnocentlywhataboutseattleicountereditwasnousepretendinglikeididnthaveallthepiecesofpuzzlejasperraisedabrowandleanedatthecountertowardmeimeanallthosedisappearancesjaspersaidstudyingmecloselywithrefreshedgoldeneyesistaredbackathimwaitingforhimtocometohisownconclusionpleasecammyjusttellmewhatsgoingoniwastalkingtocarlislewhilewewerehuntingtryingtodistractedwardandallthosefactsaboutthedeathsjasperleanedevencloserusinghisnaturaltalentsofplayinghisgoodlooksandmanipulationtogetmetosaysomethingmynaturalurgewastobackawaybutiwassuddenlydistracteditriedmybesttokeepeveryonesinformationtomyselfsayingsomethingaboutwhatiknewaboutjasperwouldtiphimoffthathewasgoingtosaysomethingtobellainthefuturejasperhadsharedsomeinformationwithmeabouthispasthehadntgoneintodetailaboutthenewbornwarbuthedtoldmehedbeenturnedinthecivilwarididntpresshimforanymoredetailssinceigatheredthateveryonesstoryaboutcomingtobewaspersonalbutihaddiscoveredsomethingonmyownifilookedreallyhardisawanimperfectionaslightcrescentsliceinthebrowthatwasonlyvisiblebecausetherewasarazorthinlinethroughhispalebrowswheretherewasntanyeyebrowhairsuddenlyiwasleaningclosertohimjasperquicklyleanedbackwardseeingthatthenaturalvampirepersuasiontechniqueswerehavingnoeffectonmewhatareyoudoingheaskedawkwardlyilostsightoftheimperfectioninthelightwhenhestoodupstraightinthedimmerlightofthediningroomiseteclipsedownonthecounterinfrontofmeonlyjustthennoticingthatihadnaturallybeencarryingitaroundinmyhandsinceidwokenupismiledcomehereiurgedhelookedsuspiciouswhyithinkisawoneofyourscarsonyoureyebrowrightiaskedexcitedlyithadbeensofaintthatisupposedthatitcouldhavebeenatrickofthelightjasperliterallyfrozeinplaceiwassmilingihadneverseenonejaspersscarsbeforeihadalwayssuspectedthatitwasbecausehewasalwayswearinglongsleeveshirtsbuttonedtothetopbutihadntevenconsideredoneofthosemanyscarswouldbeonhisfaceweretheyreallythatunnoticeab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